How to get a Job, I have a job.

For a couple of months now I have been looking for a job and with a big fail on it. I had just left university and at first I had it in my head that if I apply the jobs will be just be waiting for me but after a month of applying now and then. I went on the job seekers....I didn't want to go it at first but then I went. My personal advisor was very nice and I went to some course and then I went to jobseekers once every two weeks to sign in. I didn't enjoy signing in but I did it anyways and it was another excuse to get out of the house. I always went shopping or to jobseekers. Now I was applying for jobs every day, doing my cv again and again but I had two problems. One I didn't have that much experience and two my references were a bit of a problem.

So I wanted to do a course and then I failed to pass the tests and I had to see my personal advisor again she sent my CV to someone and then they phoned me three days later. Asked what work experience I was looking for and I said Admin. Then the next day I had an interview for work experience. When I went there the woman was nice and it was an informal interview. There were 4 people interviewing and only 2 got it. I was one of them. After being rejected it was some good news and I started the following week. I had never worked in an office before but it sure was great to do so.

It was an 8 week placement and today was my last day working for free. I have to admit it has been up's and down but mainly up but I did it and this Wednesday I found out I had a job. I was excited and happy. I will be working the full 8 hours a day and getting paid. This will be my first job that I will get paid in and the money is driving me insane. I want to do so much stuff with the money like get a car and start driving. Get an iPhone....and sooo much more. Plus even though I don't like waking up early and I love my days off. I will never forget that feeling of feeling useless that I felt when I was unemployed. Plus, I have gained a skill that will give me an advantage when looking for jobs next time.

I have my first job and it feels so good. Woah!!

Awkward Season 2 - Release Date and Promo Video

Yay, Awkward will be back on the 28th June....I am so excited. I saw the trailer and it looks like Jenna really hasn't made a choice and this series she will have both guys fighting over her. Well....I for one cannot wait.

P.s. Does Sadie look thinner, hmmmm.

Bring on SEASON 2

Peep Season 2 Trailer Below:

Dear me: Blog changes and Life Update.

I thought I should write a little bit about what’s going on in my life right now. Well, the last time I was a bit down with the whole rejection thing but I have moved on and now. After a week I got an interview (Informal) to do a 8week placement at a big recruitment agency and I still remember the day I went and I was scared because I thought they would say no to me and I would get rejected again.

I didn't get rejected and the following week I started my placement. It is in an office doing admin work and I am so surprised that I have not done any office work experience. It was me and another girl and we started at the same time and everyone seemed nice and friendly and I picked up the admin very well and it was 6 hours a day. 5 weeks and to my surprise I like it better like that than working long hours, working nights and all these weird hours.

I am starting my 5th week and hopefully, I will start to do some phone calls. I am excited for that and I hope it goes well. After the placement I might get a job at the recruitment agency or I might sign-up with them and do some work there....It has defiantly opened up some doors for me. 

Will I go back university?? I don't know....I think if there was a course I was passionate about I might go back but right now I just haven't found it.

I do have little side projects I want to start doing...

1. Learn HTML & CSS.
 It's a starting point but I really want to self-teach myself about computer languages and in the end use this website to showcase my work by designing it and playing around.

2. Write Short stories
I have always wanted to write a book but I can never reach 10 pages so I am going to set myself some goals to reach and go in baby steps to write short stories and publish them on here for free.

3. Build this site
I have been slacking this site and I feel bad....I want to grow the site hence the name change from livingnotexsiting to Brooke’s bench. I also want to try doing a bit about beauty and fashion and other stuff I can think about. I am so excited.

And joining twitter

90210 - Tristan Wild - Cold Official Music Video

Tristan Wild mostly known from 90210 has released a visual for the song cold. The effects of the video are cool but I only wish it was longer...The song is cool.

His smile..... <3

Peep Video Below:

New Music: Kendrick Lamar- The Recipe ft Dr Dre

I was listening to the radio and this song came on and just then I fell in love with it. I found out the name and it's been on repeat ever since....Absolutly love this song....I haven't liked a rap song like this since for a while.

Women, Weed and Weather the perfect recipe. (Smart)

Listen below:

Before I Go To Sleep by S.J.Watson - Book Review

RATE:★★★★

Pages:372

Author:S.J. Watson

Published: January 2012

I have just finished reading this book. I am in awe at how great this book is.

It's called before I go to Sleep and the basic concept about the book is of a woman called Christine and every time she goes to sleep she forgets everything that has happened that day and when she wakes up she thinks she is a child sometimes but in reality she's in her 50's. In this book she is slowly remembering her past in pieces and she is also being told something’s of her past and in a twisted way something’s are true and others might not be so true. 

Every day she wakes up to man she does not remember but he tells her that he is her husband......

Pro's - I have never read anything like this. It's different and for me original and very well written. At the end of the book I felt like I understood Christine as a character and as a person. Like I was Christine. 

The thing about this book was whatever you think will happen....it won't and it will make you love and hate certain characters at the same time. Then there is a twist that I never saw or even imagined to happen...but when it was revealed I was like "Oh my Gosh." 

The idea was brilliant and the way it was sectioned off (will make sense to anyone who has read it) was perfect and the build-up to the ending was quite good. 

Con's- I have read a few thrillers and they are fast paced from murders and kidnappings etc.....Where there are shocks and twists in every corner but this book has a slower pace...

Honestly, when I started reading the book...I was like is this it but I still wanted to carry on and read it....chapter after chapter until the massive twist and a brilliant ending. But for others it could be a slow book but I quite enjoyed the build-up.

Would I recommend it? Yes/ No ...........I think this is a Hate it or Love it kind of book and I love it.

Chris Brown- Don't wake me up Official Music Video Review

When I heard this song on the radio I automatically fell in love it. It's a dance track but it's different and I don't know what I am talking about....But it's just one of those good dance tracks.

The video has just come out and it's thoughtout and somewhat interesting....It does go with the theme of the song....He wakes up or sleeps three times and each time he follows the same girl into a room and they end up somewhere but their both dreaming....It's a mind-f. But it's interesting with some cool dance moves thrown in there as well.

Peep Video Below:

Drop Dead Diva - Season 4 Premiere (Spoilers)

It is back with another season, Season three left with Jane leaving on a plane and Grayson chasing after her after Stacey telling him Jane is Debb. Parker runs of after for his son......Fred also leaves as Jane tells him about seeing her kissing Grayson.

Spoilers

The new season starts off with Jane and the judge in (somewhere) and Stacey says that she meant their alike. This time Grayson loves Jane as he waits for her at the airport with flowers until he sees the judge with Jane. It is a flip but I can tell you this if Grayson was to show a little emotion towards Jane she would leave the judge and then what. The show would be done with. It was more believable when Jane was the one who loved Grayson whilst he was with some else.

Now Grayson is putting the pieces together that Debb is now Jane....The way their doing it seems really lazy...Like with the dates they both had the accident is the same and then Jane flat lining for a minute or something....First off all if he has a brain, he wouldn't believe something like that could happen. Even though it did....They could have made it more exiting. That's all.

Then we have Fred leaving, I have gotten to like Fred and the way he left was kind-off like...meh. Hopefully, he will come back with a bang....I don't know if I like this new guardian angel but will see. I just wish he and Jane had, had more time to say goodbye.

The case in this episode was a shock because from what I can remember Jane hasn't lost a case in a while, she always in some clever way of winning it....But the clients played her, HARD. Good to see the mum from "Grounded for life."

 Also there is a known guest who is Kim Kadashian and her acting was believable.....I don't hate her...Times are hard and if she can make money getting naked and playing with the media then good for her. Will see how she does in the show.

I am glad it is back and I am interested to see what they will do with the storyline because they left it with a cliff hanger and the premier hasn't fulfilled the hype but it's still good and I can't wait for more episodes.

The Vampire Diaries: Awakening by L.J. Smith book review

RATE:★★

Pages:253

Author:L.J Smith

Published: April 1991

I am a huge fan of the vampire diaries the show....I would say right now it is one of the best shows on TV, for me anyways. So with season ending and being impatient to wait until the next season begins I thought I might as well read the books. So I went out and bought the awakening. 

Pro's - I will give the author props for the ideas of the story and I thought when the author went back in time with Damon, Stephan and Katharina...I quite liked that. The book was easy to read.

Con's- I originally watched the show before reading the book and in most cases the book is ten times better than the TV show or film but unfortunately in this case the TV show is miles better. 

Let's start with the characters....Firstly, I hate Elena in the book....She's the girl you hate....She's this popular, snobby, full of herself girl who wants and gets everything....I remember when I first started reading the book and I thought back to the Elena in the show....that I could relate to and to this one that had me rolling my eyes.....Stepan was annoying, I don't know why but he just seemed all over the place....I just didn't like him. I probably liked Katharina the most, because she was what Elena should have been.....I felt sorry for Matt. 

Then there was the romance between Elena and Stephan.....that was sooo rushed and forced....Elena only likes him because his the new hot thing....then Stepan trys to avoid her and then they kiss and suddenly there in love and can't live without each other....It was so quick and there was no suspense and anything....Even when she found out about him being a vampire....it was like meh.....Rushed again. I think the author focused more on things that didn't matter than the romance...

The book was slow paced, it dragged on with things that didn't really matter.....The author had good idea's but I don't think she knew how to put it on paper....There was no emotional connection with the characters, even Damon lost his spark in the book. The wording is written for children hence it's easy to read but there is no interest or yearning to carry on. Maybe that's why the TV producers changed so much. 

Would I recommend this? No, I wish I had listened to the reviews that said it wasn't as good as the show...But I didn't think it would be this bad....It's shocking how bad it is....However, I think young children or teenagers would enjoy this book...Save your money is what I would say.

Underrated Music; Tank- Next Breath

I am going to start a collect of songs that I think are amazing but are deeply underrated....

Firstly, Let's start with Tank - Next Breath.....I heard this song on the radio one day and I automatically fell in love with song.....This is real Rnb music...Absolutely Amazing.

Have a listen below:

Brian McKnight Shades Chris brown, Mayweather and R kelly

Any Rnb fan will have heard of Brian McKnight. He was there around the times of R kelly and Ginuwine. In the Rnb world he was known for making beautiful, soulful love songs.....Ahh good times.

But now at the age of 43 years old he is trying to make a come-back....Me personally, I love when legendary Rnb artists come back onto the scene but not the way Brian is doing it.

A few months ago I heard about the video by Brian Mcknight called " How your P***** works" The name first of all is a mess....Like really Brian. Anyways, I only watched 3/4 of the video as it was too much of a mess and I couldn't believe what I was seeing....A joke or not....he shouldn't have done that....He lost a lot of respect from me on that one. I can't...

Now, He went on a twitter rant about Chris brown, R kelly and mayweather.....Firstly, I believe it's jealousy maybe because all these guys are doing well in the field they work in but him who does stupid songs now expects to have the same success maybe the money is running low I don't know but the irony of it all is that he, Yes, Brian McKnight was Charged with Domestic violent towards his wife....So in effect their all bad as each other but again who is he too judge....God is the only one who can judge....

 Nether less, he is 43 years old and this is what he does to get his 2seconds of fame back....very disappointing Brian very disappointing....Why not write a good song instead of ranting silly stuff on twitter....I thought people would mature with age but I guess something went wrong with him....

Well, Chris brown responded....honestly, at first I was like chris not AGAIN.....But this was justified....Brian is A FOOL. (sorry if a offended any brian fans)

Peep the below below:

Red Headed Stepchild by Jaye Wells - Book Review

RATE:★★★★

Pages:325

Author:Jaye Wells

Published: April 2009

 Honestly, I picked up the Silver-tongued evil book first of all....I was in a rush and I wanted something to read. Not knowing this was the fourth book of the series...So then I looked at some reviews and it looked good so I went and bought the first book and I am glad I have done because it's been a long since I have read a book that drew me in so much that I couldn't put it down.

In a world where being of mixed-blood is a major liability, Sabina doesn’t really fit in. And being an assassin – the only profession fit for an outcast – doesn’t help matters. But she’s never brought her work home. Until now.

Her latest mission is uncomfortably complex, and threatens the fragile peace between the vampire and mage races. As Sabina scrambles to figure out which side she’s on, she uncovers a tangled political web, some nasty facts about her family and some unexpected new talents. Any of these things could be worryingly life-changing, but together, they could be fatal …

This time, it’s personal.

Pro's- Personally, I love fantasy sort- off books....It had vampires, magicians, demon, fairies.....that sort of stuff...But if you are like oh my gosh, another vampire book then you will be mistaken....This book apart from vampires is nothing like twilight....It's more mature and raw....I love it. Without saying to much the story is about a half vampire/ half mage and she goes through a lot to find true friends and to really learn who she can trust and who she can't. Obviously, being a half vampire her grandmother made her feel like a second class citizen and in turn she could only become an assassin and then she is put into a mission which in turn changes her life forever and she meets a lot different people and finally, discovers the truth. 

The book was well-written and the pace was fast....I never wanted to skip pages because it was repetitive or going to slowly, which was good....The author had a lot of shocks and there still a lot mystery and hidden secrets that I assume is left to encourage us to read the other books of the series. What I love a lot about the book is there is so much going on it's amazing.

There is also a little romance....and what I love about it is isn't rushed like they met and the next 5 pages their saying they love each other...blah blah blah....The author left you in suspense like will it happen...will it not...And honestly I am surprised at what happened.....It was a surprise from the norm. 

Con's- Honestly, I thought the author could work more on the characters....Even the main character I had a picture in my head but I couldn't relate or fully picture the character....not saying it was really bad but in other books I feel a real emotional connection with the characters...even if their bad or their good. But in contrast I did love the idea with the cat/demon....but even though he was a good character I still believe this character could have been absolutely amazing if there was more of a connection....I don't know. But that's it.

Would I recommend it? Yes, if you enjoy fantasy, vampire books....It's definitely a collection Item. No, if you don't enjoy reading fantasy books...

Warning Strong language.

Nicki Minaj- Right By My Side ft Chris Brown (Starring Nas) Review

Out of the Roman Reloaded album this song was probably one of the best songs for me....Chris's voice compliments it and It reminds of the “Your love,” kind off Nicki and I prefer that Nicki Minaj. A surprise was it had Nas and that was pleasant surprise.

The video was cute and it reminded of those Rnb/hip hop music videos in the early 2000's and I loved them. The romance with Nas and Nicki was cute but I love the chemistry between her and Chris. That was cute and Chris looked like the old Chris who is funny and innocent.....I liked it. Nas looked handsome and because their both like huge rappers I felt there was too much hugging and I didn't know if they would kiss or not....And I am not going to spoil it for anyone.....
 

It was different and simple and It worked.....Props to Nicki. I just think if she had done like her first album and had released Starship, this video, then released the album it would have been better. But hey, what's happened has happened maybe she will learn from this.

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90210 Season 4 Finale Review (Spoilers)

Oh my goshhh, the finale was amazing....like wow....I am still trying to get over the shock and happiness I am feeling from the show.

((SPOILERS))

I don't know where to start...Let me just go through all the season and how I felt about it. Firstly, there are new writers on the show and they have now left high school and they are grown-up's now going to college and having jobs and all sorts. Honestly, the beginning went from a medium to a low point that I even stopped watching for a bit....It was boring.

There was Naomi and the whole sorority queen bee thing going on which wasn't that interesting, then Liam and his boat story....Then there was Navid’s uncle, undercover story which was also very lame....Then Ade and Dixon....it was alright but I honestly, believed in Ade and Navid. They were great together, I think. It seemed forced, but in the end I believed it. Then there was Ivy and she gets into relationships too easily and she went from raj to the photographer to Diego and they have all ended up badly. Really badly.....I don't know maybe they don't know what to with her.

Anyways, I am done with the negatives,lool. Ermm, Let's just go down the boyfriend lane with Silver....I think she has been with everybody. There was Dixon, who I think is the best....Then there was Ethan...Navid, Ade's baby Adopted father and now Liam.....Boy...Anyways, I think health wise Silver has it worst with her Bi-polar and now the Cancer gene...I feel for her. Then there was the Liam/Navid triangle. 

Honestly, Navid has had his chance, he needs to move on and Liam, his just not believable (too quick)....He needs to go back with Annie. But I am glad she doesn't choose either and she goes with Teddy to help her get a baby. I like teddy and Silver's relationship because Silver was there for him when he came out and I kind of missed Teddy. I think he will give her sperm and then they will have a baby....I can't wait to see what will happen later on.

Ok, the main story that I love is MAX AND NAOMI. I think they are the perfect couple....What I like about Max is that he makes Naomi work...He makes her a better person. Like even when they started out she liked him and he made her prove to him that she wanted him and fast forward they break up and at the beginning she falls for Austin and ends it with Max....I didn't like that part but I guess it was all for the purpose for him to come back. Yay.

Anyways, his getting married to a very nice girl and Naomi is planning their wedding.... and obviously when Naomi finds out who the groom is she gets jealous but I love how Max doesn't just say I love you then but he waits to see if she is really serious because look what she did to him before and Naomi does fall in love easily but with Max I think it was real because he actually cared about her. Even for me it was stressful because I just wanted to shout at Max to give her a chance but after Naomi burst into the church like that and said her feeling and again he just stood there....I wanted to slap him but then he came around and said he loved her....AWWWW.

They are the best couple ever on 90210 and I just hope that they last....Couples can last and still have drama....At least one more season......Their too cute. Nough Said.

Moving on, the biggest shock was Dixon, in a car crash......When I saw that I was shocked....my mouth opened and I didn't see it coming at all. Like with Liam, I wasn’t  surprised but Dixon's one was mind-blowing. I really like Dixon and I hope that he comes back....Please, Annie can't be left on her own.

Annie she has been busy ain't she....I think from the car crash to the cousin from hell to being a prostitute she's not such a goody too shoes like she was when she first came. I like her more now and her relationships are always bad somehow....with the priest...she must have known how that would end up....But I have to admit that was probably the most mature break-up I have seen in the show.

Honestly, on my previous reviews on 90210 I was hash and I still stand by what I wrote but you know what with the writers changing and these new ones coming in....maybe they needed time to get used to the show but now with the last 5 episodes of the series so amazing. I am actually looking forward to the next season. And the people that might have stopped watching the show will probably return.....Predictions for next season.....Dixon lives, Naomi and Max stay together....no pregnancies....travels....no illnesses....just happiness would be amazing. I don't think Silver will have a baby....I might be wrong but I don't see it. 

Bring on season 5.

How to get rid of Stretch Marks- Rescue Oil

My stretch marks, in a way I have gotten used to them, they are like my arm or leg but then there are times that I wish I didn't have then. I have them on my boobs, hips, arms (which is the worst) but I really want to do something about this now. I want to try at least.

When you search "How to get rid of Stretch Marks the first thing that comes up the most is Bio Oil. I have never tried it but that's because it is too expensive for me. For such a small bottle. Anyways, I was in Bodycare and I saw a bottle that looked like the bio oil bottle and and it had a big sign saying £3 for 150ml....which is quite big. It is also available in poundland but abit smaller.

Rescue oil is cheap and it looks like bio oil and it says it does the same thing.

Here is a little bit about Rescue Oil:

Rescue Oil is a specialist blend of natural oils which soothe and improve the appearance of the skin and nails. With regular use Rescue Oil assists in restoring the skin's natural moisture balance and the rejuvenation of wrinkled, sagging skin. It is extremely effective on scar tissue, stretch marks and numerous other skin conditions.

Rescue Oil is safe for all ages, during pregnancy and while lactating, it is easily absorbed making it ideal for use as massage oil or therapeutic bath oil.

Ingredients: Prunus Persica (Peach Kernel) Oil, Isopropyl Myristate, Prunus Amygdalus Dulcis (Sweet Almond) Oil, Oenothera Biennis (Evening Primrose) Oil, Tocopheryl Acetate, Parfum, CI 47000, CI 26100.

Rescue Oil has not been tested on animals.

How to use:
Massage Rescue Oil into the stretch marks and surrounding skin, in a circular motion, twice daily.
It may take 3 months or longer to see an improvement but the time is usually shorter than this especially on younger stretch marks.
You can also add a few drops in every bath you have....that might help to.

Here are some of the reviews:

 "This stuff is amazing, and has done its magic in just under two weeks. It's even working on the stretch marks that have gone white-silver. I haven't even used a quarter of the bottle, and it has worked wonders.
If I had any complaints it would be that it's oily and greasy, but I can live with that because it is incredible."-Jazz

 "This stuff actually works!!!!!!!!!! I was so shocked, it's not too oily and i cant smell anything bad, (i'm not pregnant however!) Any oil on your hands washes off, and you can see results almost within the first week! Very impressed, and bottle looks like it will last."-Blah

 "My marks are old and i have been using this with palmers tummy butter and they both work well. I also use a body scrub and exfoliator and really scrub the skin then apply this oil. my mark and less visable. I will be buying again" - Sel 

"The product does exactly what it says on the description box. It is ideal if you have uneven skin tones, stretch marks, pregnancy stretch marks, aging skin, dehydrated skin and scars.  It does take time for you to see changes, it takes at least 3 month on really bad scarring and marks. My dark marks are very dark, this made my leg look very uneven and unattractive. I didn’t even notice my marks were starting to fade away because I was starting to accept I am stuck with the marks forever, until my mum and my friend brought it to my attention that most of my marks have faded away. It works well on chicken pox scars as well. " - Abi

They are more reviews out there but I thought I should put a few. I am not going to say anything yet except that I will try and put some on everyday twice....minimum.Starting tomorrow and then we will see how things will go on from there. I will do a review in a month from today (Hopefully) with the results and so on until 4 months maximum. If there is no change what so ever then I will try something else.

I really hope this will work.

By The Time You Read This By Lola Jaye - Book Review

RATE:★★★

Author:Lola Jaye

Published: July 2008

I haven't done a book review in some time and I am going to make sure that I do review more regularly on here. To sum up this book it's basically about a five year old who loses her dad at that age from cancer I think and he finds out his going to die at the age of 30.So he starts writing her a manual to help her in her life by giving her advice that she might need.

Pro's- I felt like he was giving the advice to me. It was great advice that I will take on in my life. I could also relate to the main character and it was nice see how things went for her and I loved the romance that went on between her and someone else and it was the other factor of the book that I enjoyed. It wasn't a serious book it was more like a relaxed easy to read kind of book.

Con's- Ermm, It would have been nice to see what would have happened at the end a bit more....The ending was rushed and too perfect I guess. Then it was kind of a coincident that the advise her dad wrote was exactly the same as when she needed it. Aside from that the book was a good read.

Would I recommend this book? Yes, it's an easy read kind-off book and it gets you thinking about life and as a parent it probably will get you thinking about maybe writing something for your child if something bad was to happen. And for someone young adults or anyone going through something this is a great book to read that will give you hope. I think.