I am feeling proud, grateful and in a way I just want to share my
experiences in the last 2 years since I dropped out of university and what I
have gone through and what I thought would happen and what really happened and
just reminiscing really on my life experiences.
In a previous post I talked about dropping out of university because I
honestly, didn't enjoy the course and nursing is such a specific course that if
you don't enjoy the basics of the course and when you look at it as a career
you feel like crying. Honestly, I still to this day don't regret dropping out.
I had to start a new path in my life.
Anyways, I dropped out after 6 months at uni and I meet some amazing people
and had a good uni experience and in my mind at times I thought let me carry on
and do maths because I was very good at maths in high school and at the back of
my mind I regretted not trying as hard in college. So, I applied to a college
to do a maths course and I went to the interview and passed and then I had to
do a test and failed miserable. I still remember the teacher telling me I
couldn't go on the course....I felt lost, I had no idea where or what I was
going to do with my life and I had never felt like that before....I was numb.
At that time around May, I was claiming and my advisor sorted out work
experience for me and I remember the person asking what sort of job I was
looking for and I said Administration. I only said that because at the maths
test I was the only one prepared, I had calculators, pen, pencil, rubber the
works and the other guys didn't even have a pen. So I thought I was organised
and that was something....I was watching Mad men and I think that also
contributed....
I then went to the interview and the person liked me and I got the place and
it was for 2 months free placement and I loved it. There were some bad times
but overall it was the best thing ever and the days just flew by and I didn't
hate waking up in the morning and going to work. I just really enjoyed myself
and wanted to get the job done. After the two months they offered me a job.
Just above minimum wage but it was an office job I got my first pay and I was
doing something with my life.
The problem was though that I didn't feel like there was purpose, I wanted
to do something more and around November/December I started thinking about
going back to university and investing in my future. What I noticed is that if
you have a degree you move up quicker in the business than if you don't. Also I
wanted to do something that I would enjoy and maybe Maths isn't for me but
numbers are...since I was young I always found that easier than english, art
and other stuff....It just clicked.
So I applied to ucas for business management and accounting....With my
alevel grades I wasn't sure I would get in any uni because of my courses...they
were more nursing related except the accounting alevel. But thank GOODNESS, I
got into a good university, not Cambridge or anything like that but it's a very
good university with a high rate of graduate employability and I went there and
it looks amazing for business students.
Unfortunately, the job ended in December, the job was seasonal...sort of
speak. So after that I rested and just did nothing and then I started job
hunting again on my own at first and to no avail. Not even an interview. In
February I went back to claiming and I was sent to a job fair and a meeting
kind of thing and these two people came in from a bank. They were both managers
and they just talked about how they ended up there. The woman was a teenage
pregnancy girl and she got work experience in the council and then worked in
some factory as a manager, that closed down and then she worked in the bank as
a communications person and in eight years she worked her way up to a
communication manager.
The guy blew me away but because of how he dressed, he looked like he had
money, the ironed expensive shirt, the pointy shoes, the belt, the gold cuff
links and just the way he was....just shouted I have money and I take my self seriously
and that's what I love about working in an office or a corporation....Anyways,
his story was that he went to uni and did a Germany and English course....(I
think, something along those lines) he worked as a cleaner in a hotel whilst at
uni and then when he finished he got a job in the bank and again in 8 years he
worked his way up until a branch manager. That was inspirational for me.
After that I carried applying for jobs and I finally, got an interview it
was for a small call centre sort of thing. I ended up getting the job. But, I
hated it, it was only 5 people and we were cramped in this room and it was
telephone based and I just hated it and to me it was just about getting a
reference to build me up but in the end I decided it wasn't worth it. And I
quit after 1 week and a bit. What I learnt about this was that when you go to
an interview look at the surroundings and the people and make a wise judgement
as to if you can work there every day. And also small offices are not for me,
it's just too personal and I'm just not that person...and I think that was a
problem as well. I'm more of a corporation kind-off girl...Even though I didn't
stay there that long I learnt something that I think will valuable for me in
the future.
After quitting I couldn't go back to claiming so I just waiting...I only had
around 3 months so I just did nothing really. I have had 8 months of nothing
really of value in my life...Like I don't have anything pressing to wake up to
and I tell myself to enjoy it because if everything goes to plan my future is
going to be work, work, a lot of fun and more work but it will be something I
enjoy and love.
These 2 years have been great for me as a person because I believe I have
matured and grown up a bit and the relationship I have with my family has grown
sooo much and I am soo grateful for the time I have spent with them. I just
love all of them so much more and respect them more and if I could pick a
family I would pick them every time. They let me find myself and find what I
wanted to do in my life and they were always there for me.
Ok, enough with the lovey dovey stuff...I am excited about the future and if
anyone had told me that this would happen when I dropped out of uni I would
have laughed...nothing atall like I thought and makes me wonder if uni will be
like anything at all like I think it will be.
