Finally got a job, now what?

Ahhh, so after 2 years of applications, rejections and the job centre. I have finally gotten a job and it was honestly by luck. I still can't believe, it wasn't really the job I applied for I am realising but it is a job and I am grateful for it.

Now what do I do?

For the last two years my goal, the reason for me being down was due to me being unemployed but now that I have a job I have two paths, 1 is to try for one more year to see if I can get into a grad scheme and I gave myself this weekend to think about it all. And I am going to try.

If all fails then thats just another year. Of living gone down the drain.

I need to renew my AAT, actually start doing the exams. Look at the companies I want to apply to and set up alerts if it's possible. Prepare for the application process and the questions. I mess up on those but I need to be ready.

I need to lose at least 20 pounds because looks to matter in the dog on business world.

Also, I want to carry on learning French, it's good to be learning Korean but I think knowing French will also help me to have an upper leg.

Wow, I cannot believe I am actually going to do this.

I am actually going to carry on in the hopes of one day becoming an accountant. If I don't succeed this year then I will know it wasn't meant to be and I will try my luck at being self-employed.

This job has made me a little bit more employable and I am going to work twice as hard so that I can be a success at it.

Even though this was partly luck, I do believe that I deserve this job because my goodness I worked hard, I had a positive outlook on working for free. I worked for free on two internships. I did it all without complaining once and I think this job was a way of my hard work being paid of.

So, I am going to carry on working hard. Wish me luck.

Deciding to become self-employed after 2 years of getting rejections

Today I have made the decision to put my efforts into starting my own business and becoming self-employed. I have been applying for jobs for 2 years and I am still unemployed. I have done 2 internships in the last 6 months and still nothing. I am currently doing free work experience at a big travel company and I look at some of the white people who have jobs but they can't even do them properly and I wonder to myself how did they get this job.

Then there is me who did everything right, went all the way to university and graduated in the hopes to get a job. Worked for free and still nothing. The only time someone asks me to come for an interview is when they barely look at the CV and then when I go to the interview I end up getting rejected. End up feeling that I am less than human. And I have done this for 2 years and you know what I am tired of letting nobodies dictate how I feel about myself. They don't want to hire me fine, who needs them I will just work for myself and make a living.

I am a smart black woman with drive and ambition.

I already have a few ideas running through my head and now I have the will to do it. I don't have a backup. It's this or nothing. They are crackheads, alcoholics, rappers and strippers not caring about getting a job. I guess I am going to join them. I know it will be hard but at least if I put effort into it. They will some progress instead of me applying to jobs for another year and still being unemployed and having absolutely nothing to show for it.

I'm going to risk it. For the first time in my life I am going to take this chance. Wish me luck!

Learning Korean: Bought some books from TTIK

I have been trying to teach myself Korean for a little while now and even though the free stuff online has helped me to learn the basics. I didn't have that much motivation because I learn best from reading a book and not online.

So since it's 2019 I decided I want to really put myself out there and take learning Korean seriously. I went to TalktomeinKorean website, I have used their site before, it is one of my sources for learning Korean but I had never bought anything before so I went to their store and I saw the books they had. They had a beginners pack which had a book on verbs 1 & 2 and other beginner books which interested me a lot. So, I decided to buy that as well as the level 1 books. When I signed in there was a test and I was still at level 1.

I decided to do their special delivery because I wanted my order to come quickly and I prefer my order to be tracked since its coming from Korea.

It was actually really quick and the tracking was very good. I order it on Sunday and it arrived on Wednesday. So, that was quite good. Everything was there and they were new books.

The easy Korean Reading book excited me because I feel as though if I can actually read Korean sentences and understand it, that will be great. That's the goal to understand and say Korean sentences.

The real life conversations book looks good too, they have audio on their website so that should help me to be able to say the basic stuff and that will also help me when I am watching kdrama's because then I will be able to understand the common phrases.

I really liked the my first 500 words book because I kinda was doing something like that because it's good to learn more words as you go along and it seems like something you can do for like 30 mins a day and the book's really pretty. I love pink <33

The verbs books, I am really excited about that because I have started learning verbs but I feel as though those books will have a clearer explanations and more structure. I won't just be learning this and that like before and it's really pretty.

Those were the books in the beginners pack. I also got the TTIK Level 1, I think most people just buy that but I wanted to do more. I probably know maybe like 10% of whats in there but the book looks really user friendly and colorful and they also have sections where they have pictures of popular places in Korea and a little paragraph about Korea. I thought that was a nice extra touch to the books.

They have a workbook for the level 1 and I am going to write on it with a pencil, I don't really care about reselling them on ebay or anything. I haven't had a workbook since school so I am quite excited about learning with the books and that is one of my goals this is to reach the end of the year and to be able to understand Korean more confidently.

Let's do this, let's learn Korean!!!!!

Finally went to an interview & got a good response

Today is a good day and I can say that I am happy. I woke up and I got a call that after my interview last week Friday they wanted me to come in and do the work experience at the big travel agency.

YAYYYYYYYY!

Literally, after like so many interviews and being rejected so many times to actually go in and have an interview and for them to like me, it feels good and it shows me that I am slowly becoming less unemployable. 

Even though it is for work experience that will be for 8 weeks. It is a big company and if I am lucky they might ask me to stay for a permanent position but if they don't I will have a big company as a reference and I am actually excited about the work they will be doing as it will be something that I don't usually get to see on a normal day. 

Also, there was something with her handshake, when we met the handshake touched the tips of my hand, but when I was leaving she gave me a full handshake. But if you have been rejected so many times before I was convinced I hadn't gotten it, but apparently they really REALLY liked me. Ahh, let me just revel in this moment and on that part. They really REALLYYYYY liked me. Me: crying of joy as I type. 

Hopefully, I get along with the people there but I will have my best smile and try my hardest to be friendly with everyone. I have learnt alot of my previous work experiences that were not so great so here's to hoping that this one will be a great one. 

I am excited to be starting, it was like one door closed and another opened. 

All I know is that I am going to work hard and take this opportunity with both hands and do my absolute best. I am ready!!!!

I am also going to start revising for an AAT qualification. 2019, I am not going to waste the year like last year. 

2019: What I want to achieve

It's already 12 of January, time really flies. I don't want it to be 2020 and I am in the same place, unemployed and crying about it.

Career plan -

My plan for 2019 is too get a job, this can be anything. I just need to stop claiming.

I also want to complete my AAT qualifications this year.

This will all help me to become more likely to get into an accounting graduate scheme. I told myself that this will be the last year I will be applying for graduate schemes, if I fail this year then I will give up for good and accept that that is not the path for me.

Right now, I have an interview with a supermarket for a store assistant type of job. I know it's below wanting to become an accountant but I feel as though that experience will benefit me. My only issues is, will I be fit enough to do that type of job. or will I even get that type of job.

Also, I had an interview on friday for a work experience opportunity at a massive travel company. It will be for 8 weeks and after that I might not even get a job. In my heart, after going there I wasn't really interested, it seems like a place that wouldn't be a fit for me, they all seemed fake. But if I get it, I will go and see, it will look good on my CV and you never know.

But if I don't go I will go to the supermarket one, just so that I know if I would have gotten it or not. I can't deal with regrets in my life.

I will also buy some new AAT books, so that I have a fresh new start. I also want to see about Sage, I might call them to see what they say.

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Web development, I had a website and I created fansites for people, I was doing it for free, but I just got bored of it because I could create wordpress themes and there was no challenge even though I knew I still had a lot to learn so I opted to cancel everything and just stop that.

The goal of this year is to create a mobile blogger website and also a mobile app and get it live. I need to start working on that.

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Korean, I feel as though I have gone backwards, I am realising that learning a new language is like watering a plant if you stop it will die. I need to be more consistent with this.

I want to buy a korean book, maybe having something in person instead of on a computer will help me.

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I want to create a weight-loss blog. I am still thinking about it. I want it to document my experience but also to write little dribbles of life losing weight and stuff. I have been thinking about it and I feel as though this could also be something where I could end up with a career for. So, it's all still a thought process, will see.

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Stock trade, that is also something that I have thought about and this year I want to try it out and see if it something for me or not.

So, I will get some books first and then take it from there.

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A goal of 2019 is to be healthy and happy and give it my all. Don't stress unnecessarily.

2019 - Let's get it

Happy New Year, 2019 is the year, where good things will happen, I am putting it out there.


I have officially finished my work experience now well yesterday and I feel weird about it because I went into Christmas thinking I had atleast a few weeks to come back to, that I had something to look forward too and then when we went there was nothing to do and it was over.

I didn't have time to mentally prepare to the fact that it was over and now it's done. No more work experience, no more waking up in the morning and catching a bus. No more.

But I have to look at it as one door has closed, and now I am in a limbo state waiting for another door to open.

So, what do I want to do with my life now?

I am going to carry on applying for jobs, right now I just want anything so that I am not claiming anymore. I just need to do something even if it's retail or a dead-end job. I just need something. So, that is the first goal, to get a job.

Becoming a little bit less unemployable

Hello World, or future me who will read this. Hopefully, when I have a job.

Basically, I am still unemployed but a few things have changed in my life, the first being I am actually getting work experience, so I am waking up before 9am lol and doing monday to Friday every week. The first week was hard but now the week is going faster.

Today something special happened and I guess I wanted to talk about it because it's a positive and good thing. I was asked to speak in front of all the people at where I work and there were about 40/50 members of staff and I had to talk in front of them for 5 minutes.

I was asked yesterday and I agreed and when I did it today, it just flew by, I said everything confidently, or from the feedback that they gave me. The thing about public speaking is that I have done it before with uni and school so I had to force myself to not be nervous and just to get on with it and I guess it's paying off because after I finished it a lot of people said how well I did and even now I opened my email and there was a lovely email about how I preformed and I just want to cry because I haven't felt this proud of myself in a long time. I haven't felt this useful and smart and that I had achieved or done something worth will in a long time and it's nice.

Staying at home is great but those little accomplishments and achieving something in the workplace, the praise and compliments. It feels even better and I want that.

What is the next plan?
This changes all the time but for me right now, I want to get a job. I want to apply for jobs, to take it more seriously and to put myself out there more often.