The sun is truly out and I want to enjoy it. I have big calves and before I used to wish I didn’t have them but now I feel like I love my body from my hair to my toes more than I did when I was dieting and all that… I wanted to be someone else not me and I wanted to be a skinny person who could wear short, shorts and a white vest and look great but as I yearned for that body I started to hate this body and that’s not good for your mental state at all.
Today as I was going to wash my hair I was like I am going to wear a skirt, no leggings, no tights just a skirt, I bought two skirts when last year but I have only worn one once but with tights…Their just cute summer skirts. So I shaved my legs, put lotion on them and then we went outside to the garden and enjoyed the sun…It was actually really fun and I felt so girly and free.
I even saw my neighbours and it was just normal, had a good chat and I forgot my worries and fears of not wearing skirt. It’s fun, it feels good and it’s baby steps,lol. I don’t have to be a size 10/ size 2 whatever, to wear a skirt/ dress and feel good. It’s a shame that I have been hiding myself in all these clothes and I have gotten myself brainwashed into thinking that your legs have to be this small to look good.
It’s weird though because a year ago I would have never thought I would feel this positively about my body because is the time many women would be exercising and dieting because they want to look good for the summer and I guarantee you that I would have been one of those women also exercising like mad. But now I don’t care, I just want to enjoy the moment, have fun and as I do these little things like wearing a skirt without no tights, leggings. To someone else it’s nothing but to me it’s a big step for me for my confidence and the relationship I have with my body.
The sun is truly out and I want to enjoy it. I have big calves and before I used to wish I didn’t have them but now I feel like I love my body from my hair to my toes more than I did when I was dieting and all that… I wanted to be someone else not me and I wanted to be a skinny person who could wear short, shorts and a white vest and look great but as I yearned for that body I started to hate this body and that’s not good for your mental state at all.
Today as I was going to wash my hair I was like I am going to wear a skirt, no leggings, no tights just a skirt, I bought two skirts when last year but I have only worn one once but with tights…Their just cute summer skirts. So I shaved my legs, put lotion on them and then we went outside to the garden and enjoyed the sun…It was actually really fun and I felt so girly and free.
I even saw my neighbours and it was just normal, had a good chat and I forgot my worries and fears of not wearing skirt. It’s fun, it feels good and it’s baby steps,lol. I don’t have to be a size 10/ size 2 whatever, to wear a skirt/ dress and feel good. It’s a shame that I have been hiding myself in all these clothes and I have gotten myself brainwashed into thinking that your legs have to be this small to look good.
It’s weird though because a year ago I would have never thought I would feel this positively about my body because is the time many women would be exercising and dieting because they want to look good for the summer and I guarantee you that I would have been one of those women also exercising like mad. But now I don’t care, I just want to enjoy the moment, have fun and as I do these little things like wearing a skirt without no tights, leggings. To someone else it’s nothing but to me it’s a big step for me for my confidence and the relationship I have with my body.
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