Long term Unemployment: I hate job interviews & I have one tomorrow

I can say now I have been in a long-term unemployment state and  I have cried a lot, I have been too a handful of interviews my last being with a racist or ageist as I am realizing now. It never occurred to me that 25 is too old to be applying for certain jobs.

So, I have an interview tomorrow and I am going to go because might as well. No, seriously, it is a good job at a big company that employee's a lot of people but I feel as though I am so unemployable right now, I have been through so much rejection that I have been trying to manage as best as I can with the situation that is my life but with a new interview I know I will go and they will see a long term unemployed fat black 25 year old and their basically judging you and I know I won't get it. I don't want to get my hopes again and think yesss this will be the one because my bubble has burst and life doesn't work like that.

I am just tired and I just want to get it over and done with. I will try my best, but I just know results and I know how this affect me in the end. I am realising now why I haven't cried in a few months it's because I haven't been to an interview in a few months.

The good thing is, it has made me more determined to carry on working on my web development. I will put in more effort to learn more and to grow more. They will not determine my self-worth.