Tuesday, 28 June 2016

Life: Feeling like a failure but realising that I have to try harder

So I got a 2:2 in my degree and even though I acted as though I was okay with it deep down I know that it has affected me. My first year went so well, I remember when I went to university all I said was that I just wanted to sit in a classroom again and learn and then in my second year all I ended up doing was not caring about my education. I was enjoying life or should I say I got too excited and I lost track of why I was there. I then just barely made it to my final year and ultimately that affected me getting a 2:1.

I have applied to a number of jobs within accounting and I have not gotten a single response. So I decided to apply to recruitment jobs and I ended up getting three calls in a day that lead up to nothing. It make me realise though that recruitment is not a career for me. I feel very unprepared and after speaking to my brother I have finally snapped out of the delusional world I have living in. Maybe I didn't want to accept it, that I am back here. Unemployed. The difference now is that I have work experience and a degree.

I need to stop thinking negatively and start thinking positively because even though I didn't get the grade that I worked for the first time in a long time I felt ignited when I was doing my research project and when I was revising for my exams. I need to get into a routine whereby I am able to wake up and be productive and not waste anytime so that I can get used to it.

I really do not have any more choices anymore. It is finally time to grow up and be an adult in this competitive world. I need to show that I can be just as competitive as the rest of them. I need to make at least one employer to notice me.

I want to become an accountant. No ifs or buts or what if or I can do something else. This is what I am going to do. I have a long journey ahead of me but this is what I want to become. I am going to start from the bottom and climb up this ladder. Starting from this moment I will not doubt myself. This is not about money but about me.



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