Life: Purpose, failures, regrets and future worries

Im feeling lost and down. For the past couple of weeks I have been trying to learn about designing websites and learning html and css and I actually designed a site from a tutorial but I couldn't do anything with the html design because I couldn't turn it into a word press theme or a blogger or even a live html site so I was or I should say I am stuck. I don't even know why I wanted to learn to design websites. I just think I have always wanted to design websites and I just don't want to give up on it but I guess I was trying to rush it and maybe it's not for me or am I wasting my time. I don't know. I just want to finish and learn this.

Today I tried to make a website for book blogging and all the templates that I got were just horrible in the sense of the widgets and there being something wrong all the time. And then I remembered I still have this beautiful site that I have had for years. And im guessing I have zero followers and if im lucky one person will read this but im actually fine with this because I just think of Jenna from Awkward and her online diary and in a weird way this is my online diary and I can write a lot of rubbish on here because of that. In a great way its therapeutic and I always feel better after writing here.

Yesterday for the first time I felt a regret of leaving nursing because I was worried about getting a job after I graduate. I am going into my second year and it scares me that I will graduate and then nothing will happen. I haven't really had that much luck with jobs. I couldn't get a summer job so that's great.