Dead end job rejections and stop being scared!!!

So I checked my email today and I was very surprised that I got an email from lidl which read:

I applied for this job 3 or 4 weeks ago and I already knew I didn't have the job. But at least they wrote back to me I guess. I tried to get a job and that failed and I tried to volunteer and that failed as well. I'm just tired of trying and I am just going to enjoy my holiday and I know that it is more to do with the area I live.

I have been scared of doing something that I have wanted to do for a long time which is designing my own site about books, TV shows, and inspirational stuff and also learning to actually design websites in my mind I want to start by designing fan sites and if I get better improving by being able to do word press, blogger templates and so far it all seems new to me. But I have been dodging it and I think that is because I am scared and I don't really know what I am scared about. But I am just going to do this just because I want to and I have always wanted to do it.

I need to stop making stupid excuses.