Decision time- cross roads

I feel like all my posts are about my career confusions, life and so on now.

Right now, I am more certain that I want to start my own website company and it's going to be in the entertainment industry. I want to entertain people as I have been entertained but I would like it more in my home country instead of doing it mainstream.

So for now I need to write creatively. I used to write fan-fics and I enjoy reading books and I have tried a number of times to write a book but I was too lazy and I never got past 10 pages.

But I want to write a script, something small, I had ideas of doing scripts of someone in their room, and then I could do a storyboard and then act it out my self, like a weirdo. But that's the creative fun part I guess. Too see how I can use the lack of everything to be able to actually create something and then using after effects and premiere pro to edit and make it look like an actual film.

I think when I graduate or now it would be interesting to have a kdrama review kind of site and also a book review blog, and if I am brave I could go on youtube and actually give reviews in person and also play sims 4 and other games twitch and youtube. And also to write a book, probably Dystopian or romance. I really like those genres and now a days I can self-publish my books sell them on itunes or amazon and other online publications. This could be for free or for 99p. Even if we hope 10,000 buy the book. That is a lot of money.

I just want to entertain people, give them the joy that I have been given. Without TV shows, films, k dramas or books I don't know what kind of person I would be. It has been my escape from everything and I would love to offer that to others.

Especially where I am from because I can see that there is a market there that can be tapped into it just needs someone who knows what their doing. I feel like money will be an issue so for now I want to have a website with old shows, getting licencing and build it up a bit and then start creating the shows. The hardest part will be getting an investor. I will try hopefully, I will get one after things start rolling and then the next step will be actually start filming and production work. I said to myself, I know I will have made it if I can do a remake of "boys over flowers."

Wow, actually writing it down or typing it makes my mind feel a lot clearer. I keep on going back and forth on if I should do this or that but now I am going to take a chance and go for it. My predictions are that by 2017 I will be in production of my first drama. That is the hope. I know I am my own worst enemy but I will give it a real shot and not be lazy or put off when it gets hard.