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Pauline Quirke losing weight but gaining years.

2012-02-03T18:51:00.000-08:00

Constant backache, painful knees, a worn out hip, Pauline Quirke reveals that ballooning to 20st was like carrying another person around. Now she’s determined the 7st she’s lost is staying off...

When Pauline Quirke stood on the bathroom scales for the first time in years eight months ago, she thought they were broken so went out and bought another pair. But the reading was the same: 19st 6lb.

'I'd watched a programme about sumo wrestlers a few days before which said one of them tipped the scales at 20 ½ stone,' she says. 'I thought, "That's a lot of weight." 'Then, the following week, I got on the scales and they said, 19st 6lb. I thought, "That can't be right," so got off, got on, got off again, twiddled the knob. It was definitely 19st 6lb.

'I went to Argos and bought another pair. They said 19st 6lb too. I was the size of a sumo wrestler. That was a real shock. I thought, "I've got to deal with this." Call it what you want, but when you're 19st 6lb, technically that's morbidly obese.' So, very fat? 'Yes. Go on. Use the f-word. It's not insulting. Fat is fat.'

'I visualised what I wanted from losing weight. First, it was to be healthier and feel better, and then wearing jeans and T-shirts became my thing. I've still got a little way to go. I wanted to lose 8 ½ st.'

Now, I'm stunned. I weigh just under eight stone. She wanted to lose me, plus an extra leg. 'Imagine me having to lug you around 24/7,' she says.

The sad thing about this is now she looks older than her actual age, she has deffo aged with this weight loss. But we hope she carries on maintaining the weight loss.

Drake - Practice Official Music Video Review

2012-02-03T17:58:00.000-08:00

Practicemusic video has just been released, I got Drake's Take care album and practicewas one of the best songs on the album. It's abit on the explicit side but Iliked the song, the beat and Drakes voice with it went well together.

Ihave just seen the video and when I first saw it I thought it was just somerandom video of a girl dancing to his song and he walked in, not knowing thisis a music video. To sum up:

"The video girl with big FAKE bumdancing and at 3:14 drake walks and the dancing stops."

Honestly,she can't dance (or twert as they call it) it's ruined the song a little bitfor me and if I was to watch the video I would watch from 3:14 and onwards. Isit original no and yes, I say yes because who has made a video like this sosimple yet something that hasn't been officially done by an artist before. Theno part is how many video's are there of a girl with a FAKE big bum dancing.It's so unoriginal and bluh. Only guys will like this.....

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Madonna Give Me All Your Luvin' (Feat. M.I.A. and Nicki Minaj) Official Music Video Reveiw

2012-02-03T17:26:00.000-08:00

Madonna is back and a lot of fans will be excited about thenews that she is coming back with new music and just now she has dropped hernewest music video give me all you luvin featuring M.I.A and Nicki Minaj.

Honestly, Madonna is a legend and my personal favourites byMadonna are "papa don't preach," "holiday" and "like a prayer."

Now let's talk about "Give me all your luvin," the song is OK,I think for me it's a grower. The video is good. I liked it when they were inwhite but it was very obvious that a lot of Photoshop was used. Madonna is anaging woman and even with all the technology it showed.

I felt that Nicki Minaj and M.I.A had very short parts,Madonna made sure that this music video was definitely hers and that no onewould over shadow her.But I don't think they cared how people get the chance to work with a legend like Madonna.

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Olivia - Walk Away Official Music Video Review

2012-01-30T16:42:00.000-08:00

I first heard Olivia in Candy shop by G-unit at that timeshe was the hot new thing, G-Unit's first lady. She was on top of hergame....Then she got dropped and honestly from listening to her solo songs. Itwasn't great or even good. It was like a worse version of Beyoncé, Rihanna orAshanti.

However, Olivia didn't give up and no matter how many timesthings haven't really gone her way she has been trying, which I think isamazing. Then she went on the hit reality show "Love and Hip Hop,"which I love.

Now let's talk about this new single, anyone who watches"Love and Hip Hop," has probably heard Olivia sing this live. Thesong is good compared to her past solo efforts, I actually like this song. Ilike the lyrics it's not repetitive like a lot of music now, she really took thetime to write these meaningful lyrics.

The video has a lot of things going on, it's basically abouta woman who gets beat by her boyfriend and she wants to leave him but shedoesn't because she loves him. Some people might have hoped for her to leavehim but this video is real. Many people choose to stay in a relationship likethat.One does wonder is domestic violence a gimmick to have people to talk about her and her music? Hmmm. Then we have two people dancing in the hallway, then there's Olivia in astreet singing with some random dude in the background.

Why is he there??

Anyways, her make-up or lighting was all over the place, onemoment she looks like an orange then the next she looks like a vampire. Iguess, that’s what happens when you are financing a video from your own pockets.

But this is really the first song I have listened to Oliviaand I thought yeah, she is good enough to be classified as a solo singer. Iwish her all the luck with the music video and song.

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Although this is a good attempt it reminds me of Eve's "Love is Blind," which to me is more heart felt and more real music video and song than Olivia's.

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UnderWorld Awakening Movie Review

2012-01-28T13:04:00.000-08:00

Rate:★★★★

Length: 1 hour, 28 minutes

Where: Cinema

Age: 18

Genre: Action,Adventure,Scifi,Fantasy,Horror

I have just come back from the cinema and I was watching “UnderworldAwakening” and I did see the trailer and it looked cool but the trailers don'tdo this film justice, it's just too good. I am now finding out that this is thefourth film of the series of underworld film but it is not the last. This wasthe first film I saw of the series and I understood what was going on plus theyexplain the past at the beginning of the movie so you don’t really need to haveseen the other films.

Pro's - I saw this film in 3D and I think that was scary andamazing at the same time, a few times in the film the monster felt like it wascoming for me and it scared me so much, it was amazing. There was a lot ofaction and cool tricks especially from

She was really good, what made her good was the fact thatbecame scared of her and it didn't feel or seem fake like “Knight and day”movie where the opposite side just dropped very easily her fights werebelievable and people didn't just die. And the way she won some fights orbattles, it was done very clever and brutal. Very good acting.

I really liked the storyline of the film and how it wasdone, very interesting and makes you want to see more. I won't give away thestoryline because I don't want to ruin this for anyone who might end up goingto see this movie.

Another greatpositive was the eye candy in the film:

Michael Ealy played a good detective

Theo James plays David one of the good guys.

Cons- One of the negative was that the film was too short, I know I am being selfish but that's about it for the cons.

Would I reccommend it? Yes, it's one of those films that will keep anyone entertained. Go and see it.

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Chris brown - Turn up the Music (New Song)

2012-01-26T19:01:00.000-08:00

Chris Brown, Chris brown another pop/ dance song. How great,surely it will climb up the charts and get played by mainstream radios but I amgoing to say opinion about this song.

The lyrics are basic and very repetitive, it's basically "turnup the music," and a sentence and "turn up the music," and another sentence....Youget the picture.....then there's "ohh ohh ohh," and we are back to "turn up themusic." I know Chris is (I am sorry) was good at writing lyrics to songs but things have sadly change. Movingon the beat is Ok, it would probably be great for clubs and for people who likepop/techno music but even that it's not outstanding or special in anyway. Wewill see how it does?

Conclusion, Not his best, nothing special will probably seethe video when it comes out.

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Etta James Dies Aged 73

2012-01-21T12:01:00.000-08:00

We have lost another talented singer.

Etta James died at the age of 73 of complications from leukaemia and she will be missed. Her music will live on forever and generations will come and they will also enjoy her timeless music. One of my favourite songs by Etta James is "At last." That is a beautiful song and I also like "I'd rather go blind."

Beyonce who played cardillac records a great film about Etta James said this about her death.

“This is a huge loss. Etta James was one of the greatest vocalists of our time. I am so fortunate to have met such a queen. Her musical contributions will last a lifetime. Playing Etta James taught me so much about myself, and singing her music inspired me to be a stronger artist. When she effortlessly opened her mouth, you could hear her pain and triumph. Her deeply emotional way of delivering a song told her story with no filter. She was fearless, and had guts. She will be missed.”

Rest in Peace Etta, you will be missed

Nicki Minaj- Stupid Hoe Official Music Video Review

2012-01-20T18:02:00.000-08:00

Nicki Minaj just dropped a new video for her second album Pink Friday: Roman Reloaded.

I hadn't heard the song before I saw the video and after listening to the song a few times now it is catching on. When I first saw the video I was shocked and surprised because it was the Nicki I liked. The video is interesting and different and there is a lot of things happening. It reminds me of when I first saw moment 4 life or your love, it's exciting.

I really like the bridge of the song "Stupid hoe is my enermy, stupid hoe is so wack,stupid hoe should have befriended me, she could have probably came back," it sounded like a nursery rhyme,lool. Clearly this whole song was towards LiL Kim and even though I am tired of this beef, I think this video was good. But I can see alot of people hating on this video....

The song gets better the more times you listen to it. Even I have to admit her body looked amazing here, if only I could have that body....

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The Vampire's Diaries Season 3 Episode 11 Review (Spoiler Alert)

2012-01-15T14:06:00.000-08:00

The vampire diaries have been back for two weeks but I haven’treally had the chance to write about it. This season has been crazy good and atthe end each episode I was in shock and waiting for more; then they stoppedshowing more episodes until January, which was sad.

Klaus is basically the driving force in this series and Ihave to admit that they picked the best person to play him and I can’t help butlike him, he is bad, crazy and twisted in the head but that’s what makes itentertaining. These last two episodes his just been trying to get the coffin ofhis family back from Stefan.

Moving on we have Damon and Elena and they have kissed andit’s like get together already. She knows she wants to. Honestly, about tenepisodes ago I wanted them to get together but now I want Elena to get backwith Stefan because his the bad boy now. But either way something needs tohappen soon.

Stefan is crazy and honestly, I didn’t think he had it inhim to outsmart Klaus and to act this bad and carefree, which I like a lot andthey should take it to another level,lol. I really liked the chicken fight ofbluffs he had with Klaus but I knew he would never kill her, he still lovesher.

Then we have Jeremy who is leaving, I am not sure if he isleaving the show for good or he will go for an episode or two and come back avampire or something who knows….He was getting a bit boring and in the way because the whole I can see ghosts thing wasn't really that entertaining. Soit’s good his gone for a while.

Caroline and Tyler are over, I liked them two togetherbecause it was like I can’t have you but I want you but now his got this wholeI have to do everything Klaus says thing going on and that’s a problem for herso they’re not together anymore, he bites her and she almost dies. But she doesn’t becausethe same man who told Tyler to bite her ends up saving her life and then leavesher a bracelet. My first instinct is that because Klaus has saved Caroline’s lifeshe will also have to do what he says but some people think it could be thebeginning of a romance. All I know is Klaus doesn’t do anything nice fornothing.

Good carry on of the series and I will be watching. Goodwriting and acting.

Before I die by Jenny Downham Book Review

2012-01-14T12:46:00.000-08:00

RATE:★★★★

Pages:327

Author:Jenny Downham

Published: July 2007

Since coming back home one thing that I have missed is reading so I went out and got some books to read and so far I have finished one and I am going to do a review about it now.

Tessa has just a few months to live. Fighting back against hospital visits, endless tests, drugs with excruciating side-effects, Tessa compiles a list. It's her To Do Before I Die list. And number one is sex. Released from the constraints of 'normal' life, Tessa tastes new experiences to make her feel alive while her failing body struggles to keep up. Tessa's feelings, her relationships with her father and brother, her estranged mother, her best friend, her new boyfriend, all are painfully crystallized in the precious weeks before Tessa's time finally runs out. "Before I Die" is a brilliantly-crafted novel, heartbreaking yet astonishingly life-affirming. It will take you to the very edge.

Pro's - For me the biggest pro that this book has is that itmade me cry, I have never ever cried whilst reading a book before and I neverthought that would happen but in the last few chapters of this book the tearswere just coming down my face and that is not a bad thing at all because itshows you how great this book is if it can conjure such profound emotions. PlusI am not one of those people that cry a lot. I think what also made me cry wasbecause I knew someone who died of cancer, I wasn’t really close to them but wewent to the same school and I can still remember seeing them for the last timewearing that hat at school when he was really ill, I think he had just come tolook around for the last time. He died aged 16.

Moving on, I love the characters in this book from Tessa thegirl who has cancer to her little brother and her parents. Tessa to me remindedme of myself when I was 15/16 years old and I felt like the writer made thereader understand Tessa more as a real person going through something none ofus would want to experience. Her little brother somewhat reminded me of mylittle brother, so that was cute.

This book has some funny moments in it and will really makeyou think about your life and death, not in a bad way but in a "I have theopportunity to live, I want to make something of myself," kind of way sothat when you go you will have achieved all the things you wanted to do.

Cons- I think after she completes her little goals and herhealth gets worse you are kind-off like ok, when is she going to die, whichsounds horrible but that’s what I was like but it lasted for a few pages andthen something got me all emotional and from then on I was just crying, readingand getting some tissues.

A con which I would also say is that it was predictable,like there was a shock in the book but you knew what it was before it wasannounced but those two little things stopped this book from getting 5 stars.

Would I recommend this book???

Yes, defiantly, I haven't read a book this good in a longtime and I would put this as a must read and I finished it in 2 days. It's wellwritten in a light humorous tone were the author knows how to grab the reader’sattention from the first pages.

New year 2012 (Livingnotexisting is One Today)

2012-01-01T11:56:00.000-08:00

2011 is over and today marks the one year anniversary of this blog. I started this blog a year ago and I am happy that I am still going. True in the past couple of months my posts have reduced dramatically but my life has changed and I will try to make time to write more about my life as things go on, do reviews and tips plus more.

It is weird to think that a whole year has just gone by and so much has happened in my life and I have had a lot of experiences and I have a lot met some amazing people. But there have been some memories of things that I would rather not remember but hey, that’s life.

I hope 2012 is a great year for everyone.

What Being a Nurse is Really Like

2011-12-01T09:53:00.000-08:00

I am training to be a nurse and it’s been 4 months now since I have started university and about 2 months since I have been on placements and I am going to express how I feel about the whole situation.
First of all when I went into the placements I had an open mind and I was ready to give nursing a good go but each day I grow to dislike it more and more and I really do believe that it is one of the worst jobs ever. I am just going to go in on the affects it has had on my body and health. Nurses are busy caring for other people’s health whilst they’re healthy gets worse. My knees hurt it’s only been two months…I stretch every morning to try and easy the damage. My back is also feeling worse and that’s with the manual handling being done. Also I am not even registered but I am quite stressed out.

The staff are nice and I really like some of the patients. I think the ward that I am on is really good and compared to the other wards that I have been to, it’s up there with the best. But even though the patients are lovely and all that I still feel down every time I have to go back to the hospital, it’s like you are in school and sometimes you don’t want to go but you get used to it and you just get on with it because you know that in x amount of years you will move on to doing something better. But as a nurse this is it……you will be a nurse for many many years.

One thing that I can’t get out of my head that I am actually doing this for the rest of my life, is that all my hard work, getting A grades and sleepless nights was all in order to end up cleaning someone’s poop, cleaning balls and vags……Like really, I have stopped and thought to myself “God, was this really your plan for me?”

Moving on, on the ward I am on its 12 hour shifts day and night and day shifts are ok but when you get home you are tired and you sleep wake up in the morning and you are back. Nights are even worse because after you are done you are like do I go to sleep or eat breakfast and it’s not even healthy or good for your body. You wake up feeling out of place. Digestive system is ruined….Sleep patterns not going on.

Also, they say if you work 12 hour shifts you will get more days off…But in reality you will be tooooo tired to even feel that you are getting more days off because you’re day off you might be sleeping or catching up with the house work and the days will go so quickly and you are back at work. A lot of the nurses with children complain that they hardly ever see their children and family for days because they will be working.

You actually don’t have time to yourself, if you went to the gym, had a hobby, I don’t even have time to sleep how can I find time to read a book, I had to lose sleep to make time to go to the cinema, to socialise you have to suck in the pain to have a good time….Even time to write on here has been unknown...Work really does take over you’re entire life.

On the plus side why most people become nurses now is because of the job security to get a decent pay. But is it worth it….Is the money worth the back-pain the moments missed with the family and friends…..

I truly believe that nurses do a lot of work and they give up their lives to do the job they do but I am young and I still have dreams but if I am honest I don’t think nursing is for me because it’s a career choice, something you will do 30 or more years of your life and I would rather be with my children when I have them…..But it’s still a hard thing to decide to leave because of the unemployment going on at the moment.

At the moment I cannot see myself finishing the three years and graduating to become a nurse, I think I will try to finish this year and you never know something might happen and I will end up graduating but I am just thinking about my future at the moment and nursing is not looking to promising.

I thought I should share some of my experiences with anyone in my situation or thinking about being a nurse because of job security and the pay…..I would suggest you really think about it and even work as a health care assistant in a hospital for a few weeks to see what the nurses do….It’s not all rosy and wonderful as some people might think. But then again they are some people who genuinely enjoy being nurses and I think that’s fantastic.

Justin Bieber- Mistletoe Official Music Video Review

2011-10-21T14:59:00.000-07:00

First of all I am not really a Bieber fan what so ever but I thought I would check out the video and to my surprise it wasn’t bad. The song is different from anything out now….His not doing dance/ techno, it’s not I need to shock everyone….or I need to put some message somehow it’s just a nice, sweet song. I also liked how the lyrics weren’t repetitive and they were actually good lyrics in the song.

Justin does also look grown in this video….he is not cute anymore but some might say his hot!!

The video was nice and it gives you that Christmas feeling, even though we are still in October but I am guessing in November and December we will be hearing this on the radio and on our television screens along with the usually Christmas hits that come back into the charts that time of the year.

Ohh, and it was sooo obvious that somehow he would get her that dress when she was looking at the window.

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University Life, Tips, Advice and Experiences So Far

2011-10-05T09:43:00.000-07:00

University is an experience I tell you. The first thing I will tell anyone going to university is really look into what the course will be about and if you are lucky enough to know someone who has done the course before ask them as many questions as you can because you will have to sit down in a class for 4 hours or more learning about it and if you are really not interested then you will find it very challenging.

I remember I applied through UCAS and then I had to interviews and the first interview that I went to was a university far away from home and everyone was very friendly and I liked the environment and after the interview I waited 5 minutes and then they told me I was in; if I got the grades. This doesn’t always happen, some people don’t even have to go to interviews and for my second interview in a University in my home town I had to wait for a couple months until I was told. I basically decided to go to the University away from home and have the full University experience and to also be able to be independent.

After you have chosen your University and the course and if like me you are away from home you might be scared, worried…..I was like that and I can still remember how I felt, it wasn’t good because I was moving to a new city with new people that I didn’t even know and living with people from all over.

Before going to University

My advice before you University is to do and send everything that they ask for as quickly as possible and also do your student finance quickly because when you start Uni, you will what that money to be there.

Packing

There are things that some people forgot so this list is things you might not think off:

• Hangers
• Washing basket
• Iron (Even though the uni says they have it, they didn’t provide one)
• Toaster (Check if you’re Uni provides one)
• All the wires for ipods, phones, radios or laptops (A must)
• Towels

Ok, you are in Uni now and you might be scared like I was. Also, for me it was probably worse because I had to move in a week early because of my course and there were only 4 people in the whole building and it was quite lonely but I went home that weekend and when I came back there were people and everyone is on their own and they want to make friends so most people will be up for a chat and you really do make friends quite easily.

Tip- I don’t know if this is for every University in England but for my University and others that I have heard about this is usually true. When looking at accommodation I would recommend going with the cheapest/ economy accommodation e.g. mine is 12 people sharing a 2 showers and two bathrooms and a kitchen.

STOP!!

I know what you are thinking 12 people, that’s too much and that’s what I said but firstly, with the showers, I could say I want to shower at any time of the day and I would get a shower because we all shower at different times as we all start and have our lectures during different times. Same with the toilet and there is a cleaner every day.

A great fact about sharing with 12 people or around there is after the first week or so you get to know each other and become really good friends and there are some people who bake cakes and we share quite nicely. Plus for those that like to party and get drunk in the economy or cheapest halls there are many parties and it is lively but if that’s not you’re seen you could socialise in the kitchen. Unlike in the ensuite/ fancy accommodation where there are 6 people sharing and don’t get me wrong people do get along but I know a lot people who only speak to one person and everyone else shuts themselves out and are distant. So you will end up quite lonely and isolated but with somewhat fancy furniture.

Plus a lot of people come from the ensuite accommodations at night to the economy/cheapest accommodations and more people in their second and third years of their course actually choose to come to the cheapest ones because material things are nice when you first see it but as I look at where I am staying I really got a good deal for my money and you save a lot of money as well. But all I am saying is when you are choosing your accommodation don’t just look at the packaging.

So far University has been good and you do get used to it and start to enjoy it and meet people that different from your usual circle. I thought I should share my experience because before I came here I was so worried but if you are hope this helps and it deffo gets better. Also it is a lot of fun but you also need to remember why you are there, for that education and qualification.

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Awkward Season Finale Review

2011-09-29T07:02:00.000-07:00

What a sad day, Just seen the season finale of the first season but the good news is there will be a second season.

((Spoiler alert if you haven't seen the finale))

Ok, I don't even know why I started watching the show I think maybe I saw an advert and I thought to try it out without really that much high hopes for it but it turned out to be really good and funny. Every episode there was a good ending that left you wanting to watch more.
The season finale was a double bill and the question on my mind and everyone else was who will she choose Jake or Matty. Me personally I like Matty more because their chemistry is perfect and his HOT. But Jake his is cute but what makes him good is he doesn't care what people think and he has saved Jenna a lot of times through this season. He is a nice guy unlike Matty who would avoid Jenna if everyone hated her.

Anyways, at the end of the episode she picks Jake and Matty is left sad about it all but I do think that she made the wrong decision because she really wants to be with Matty but his just been doing the wrong things I guess. Jake is the safety net I would say. But if you think about it, it would have been so predictable if she had picked Matty.

Also, the other story was about the letter and we finally found out that it was her mother who wrote it. I swear on one episode I actually thought it was her mother because she tries to act young and she wants Jenna to be the girl she was. Now Jenna knows who wrote the letter and it's a dead end because what can Jenna really going to do, sulk for a few days then she will move because at the end of the day it's her mother.

Hopes for next season, I think Matty will either find another girlfriend just to make Jenna jealous or he will fight for her. I don't think Jake and Jenna will last for more than 5 episodes or maybe someone else will be brought into the picture. Hmm. OH and I wonder how Jenna is going to tell Jake about her and Matty and how that will go down. Can't wait!

Overall, good first season, if you haven't seen Awkward, check it out. Also good season finale.

Rihanna We Found Love Single Review

2011-09-22T18:09:00.000-07:00

I have listened to Rihanna's new single numerous times now and honestly I am not feeling this song at all. It is just a normal generic dance sound track, nothing really special or different from anything out there now.

I think this is just pure laziness because they repeat "we found in love in a hopeless place," like a million times and every time the song finishes I actually thought that was the only thing she had said throughout the entire song. The reason why I believe that these artists or their writers or even the producers now a days are lazy is because half of the lyrics are “we found love in a hopeless place,” there is no bridge in the song, then there is about three instrumental breaks were there is no singing. I am guessing there are about 45 to 60 seconds on the instrumentals on a song that is 3:36 minutes long. Is that even a song....and don’t get me wrong I love songs with instrumentals but three time though….come on now.

Also if this was Keisha or whoever I would like ok, next. But this is Rihanna and this is her 6th Album and to be honest from the first album to the last she has always changed it up and had been of a different class to most artists. Even loud was a good album, I liked "Only girl, What’s my name," and all the other songs but this song feels like it was meant to be on loud and me personally I thought she would change it up but I guess I was wrong.

I don't mind dance songs but at this moment they are so many and they all sound similar to me and We found love isn't special or different from anything I hear now which is disappointing to be honest. She has always delivered with her music and I hope this isn't the first time that I actually don't like her singles or album.

I do feel like it's rushed as well because her video for cheers has just been released and now this song is out. Most people won't probably realise that it's for a new album. But she has her crazy fans that will buy a million copies and request her song on the radio even if they don't like it but that's sad if I was an artist who had been given a voice like hers and a platform to make timeless music that will be listened to from England to China I would work really hard to make music that would touch peoples heart from all walks of life not just making music for the sake of making a sale. But that's what the music world has come to now. MONEY!!

Overall, I don't really like this single and it is fairly boring and disappointing but trust they will be people who will love this song and it will probably be another number 1 for Rihanna but I wish her well and will see.

Sean Paul - Got 2 Luv U Official Video Review

2011-09-16T16:30:00.000-07:00

I have just seen the new video by Sean Paul called Got 2 Luv U Ft. Alexis Jordan. First of all I have been a big fan of Sean Paul when he came out with Like Glue, Get busy, temperature, Breath and so on. He was different and I think he was just being himself and he did music that had reggae and dancehall music but the songs just made you want to dance. He was amazing with slow songs aswell.

Now watching and listening to his new song I feel like his not being himself. The video in a posh hotel room/ nightclub that looks like it's in Vegas with loads of sparkles and girls who really can't dance on top of tables. The song is very catchy in the sense that they probably repeat got 2 luv like a billion times....Half or more of the song it's just got to love yeah...on repeat. The video was like a lot of videos now a days and that's why I think he felt the need to do what was being done now.

“I don't really care what people say, I don't really watch what they do.” - Like Glue

Sean Paul is nearly 40 years old and maybe he wants to keep up with the trend, which explains the silly Mohawk....even the single cover of a phone and the song name in texts…come on it’s like you're mother saying “innit”....then the dance/pop music and the ohh so common nightclub scene with girls dancing around.

Where is the originality, the creativity....Like his music used to have, even if he was talking about getting high...the videos where interesting, the dancing, the reggae feel and the music. He was different from what anyone else was doing. His songs were like you could listen to them ten years from now and you would love it still.

Overall, the song is average at best.

90210 Season 4 Premiere Review ((Spoiler Alert))

2011-09-15T15:56:00.000-07:00

Yay, 90210 is back and I was so excited and happy. There were some questions left when the third season ended like is Naomi really pregnant? Are they going to get new actors and actresses? Are they going to axe anyone?

Spoiler Below if you haven't seen the Premiere

First things first it starts off with Naomi and Max in the doctors room and when their waiting for the results of the pregnancy Max is very supportive but then it's revealed that she is not pregnant Max REALLY shows his happiness a little too much and that hurts Naomi’s feelings which in result ends the relationship.

Naomi I am glad is still on the show and this episode she was mainly upset over Max and hunting out guys and there was this hate thing going on with a new guy called Austin and if it was the first season I would have been excited about this plot where they hate each other at the beginning and then somehow end up falling in love is overdone and not really original.

Moving on to Silver, Navid, Ade and Navid's sister. Honestly, I am not really a fan of Navid's sister I feel like that's a person who really didn't need to be added on...Silver and Ade story is nothing exciting, I guess. Silver still hates Ade for basically almost killing her but then some people say Silver shouldn't really act so innocent because she did go after her best friends boyfriend but if I was Silver I wouldn't forgive Ade and I would have checked my medication after Ade used the bathroom.

The Liam and Annie storyline was alright, Liam came out of nowhere, proposed and Annie said no because he didn't call or anything. Then he proposed again for the second time and this time it was a big thing in front of people, with fireworks the whole shebang but she said no and rightfully, I would have said no. But I think something happened to Liam when he was away and I can see him becoming an alcoholic later on in the series and then Annie maybe helping him find his way and then they get back together...but that’s just my guess I could be completely wrong. Oh, and he buys a shack.

Raj and Ivy nothing really happened, Raj is going through his chemo and Ivy is by his side, which I think is so sweet and you can really feel their love but it makes you think how far can they really go with that storyline...obviously they will have to have one or two episodes where they cry for Raj.

Dixon was like an extra who was there to join the scenes together, his not going college and he wants to be a musician or something along those lines...Good for him. College/University is not for everyone.

Teddy, what can I say, he was worried about telling his father his gay then at the end he phoned and told his father he was gay on a plane going to Where? Who knows...I just hope that they give Teddy storylines other than just coming out or accepting he was gay because we had a whole season last time of that and it was really interesting and you felt for him but I hope this season he gets more stories that are varied.

Overall, it wasn't great and I know their new writers and I don't know I was hoping for a bang and to be left excited for the premiere but I guess they were just transitioning from the high school setting to the real life, college life style, which I think is cool. But hopefully as the episodes carry on it will become more interesting.

I also do wonder at the end of this season will Silver and Navid be together?? Hmm, still glad 90210 is back.

Awkward New T.v Show Review

2011-09-15T13:24:00.000-07:00

I have been watching this new television show which airs on MTV on Tuesdays and I have seen 9 episodes so far so this review will be based on that.

I tried out the show and from the very first episode I was hooked. The storyline is good basically from my understanding it's based in high school and about a girl who loses her virginity to a popular guy in summer camp and after they do the …………… he tells her he doesn't really want to be seen with her because she's not popular and his scared what people will say. Also people think she tried to kill herself but the story develops more and more in an interesting way. It's really funny but also sad because Jenna gets bullied and embarrassed so bad you just want to cry for her.

Jenna Hamilton

I like Jenna, she's not too good or too nice like they make other characters that you end up disliking her but somehow you relate and see a bit of yourself in her either as a person in high school or someone who has finished high school. You feel sorry for her and smile when she gets with Matty.

Matty McKibben

When I saw the first episode I recognised the face but it took me awhile to place it, he is from desperate housewives but somehow he seems really HOTT!! in this show. Me personally I want him to get with Jenna but not as a secret thing...I found it funny when she played games with him and he got jealous.

Jenna's parents

Ok, their history is they were teenage parents and the mum is really funny because she thinks she's still a teenager and she wants her daughter to be cool. I loved how they made the parents to act like that, very funny. Loved the scene when they were high and the one when they were talking about punishing Jenna.

Jake Rosati

He is the extra spice mixed in to make the show better. He is the sweet guy that is nice to her and somehow saves her when she's in trouble. I like him and it would be cool if he got with Jenna but I don't think she is interested at all and it would be interesting to see what will happen when he finds out that Jenna’s been with his best friend.

Sadie Saxton

O-M-G, they really make you hate her, she is horrible, nasty and mean but it is so ironic because she is fat and she feels horrible about it and I would feel sorry for her but at any chance she gets she is on Jenna like nothing else and all the pity you have goes. But on the real she is not as fat as they make her out to be on the show

Overall, from what I have seen I think it's a great show and if you haven't tried it, try it and see, you have nothing to lose and if you enjoy shows like 90210 or high school themed shows you will enjoy this one.

1 Month off and whats been going on

2011-08-19T05:55:00.000-07:00

I haven’t posted in exactly one month, there are numerous reason’s as to why I haven’t one could be there really hasn’t been anything for me to post. Another could be I have been preparing for the big move to university, which now feels quite scary.

I will be moving to a new city, living with people I don’t even know yet and being independent. It’s all new but it’s life I guess. It’s funny though how I remember when I started applying to universities and then the interviews and yesterday I got my results and it all looks very positive. The next three years of my life are set. Weird when you actually think about it soon it will be over.

Also during this time I have been trying out some different creative things like drawing cartoons, writing poems and I started a short story. So I am going to motivate myself to carry that on and in time I will post some short stories on here.

Chantelle Houghton Says She's Infertile Because of Crash Diets and Bulimia

2011-07-19T04:31:00.000-07:00

Chantelle Houston rose to fame when she entered and then won Celebrity Big Brother in 2006 and she became the first non-celebrity to win celebrity Big Brother. Her likeability was on top but as time went by and she started to crave the lime-light the sweet girl that people once voted for in celebrity big brother started to show that she would do anything and be with anyone to stay in the limelight and that in result saw her likeability go way down.

(I have censored the picture)

However, all that aside I do believe that no woman deserves to go through what she is going through, here’s her story:

Chantelle Houghton, winner of Celebrity Big Brother in 2006, said doctors have informed her she will never be able to conceive naturally because of her extreme eating patterns.

Miss Houghton said: ‘I’ve punished my body, and now it’s punishing me. Ultimately it’s my fault. I hate myself and can never forgive myself.

‘Because of my obsession with food and my crash dieting when I had bulimia, I’ve ruined my chances of having a baby naturally.

‘All the time I was making myself sick, I was thinking: “Yes, I’m getting skinnier.” I thought I was winning, but I was losing. It’s cost me the chance of a family.’

We have been brain-washed to believe that the skinner the better and that’s where the problem is and it’s getting worse because it is affecting younger children the most even boys as well now a days.

Miss Houghton has told how she struggled with bulimia from the age of 14.
Pressure: Chantelle, seen here last month, says she was 'obsessed' with crash diets

Pressure: Chantelle, seen here last month, says she was 'obsessed' with crash diets

At one point, she revealed that she drank up to EIGHT 1.5 litre bottles of water a day to fill her stomach and that her periods once stopped for a year.

‘I have tried every diet there is, from body wraps and the Special K diet to just drinking water, but I know I have to eat healthily and go to the gym, because that’s the only thing that works.’

She added that, at her thinnest: ‘I was making myself sick a lot, so food was just coming straight back out of me. I was obsessed from the minute I woke up in the morning until the minute I went to bed.

‘I was constantly watching what I was eating.’

Many women have tried many crash diets to lose weight fast and the main reason we are tempted to try them is because of the images we see of slim/ slender bodies and we want that body instead of our own. But for most women and me we tend to usually give up….but there are some people who don’t and they go through a week, with only having water….. which is not healthy at all and very very bad for your body.

She said: ‘He told me that I’d never be able to conceive naturally. Dr Gorgy told me that I had low fertility and that if I wanted to have a baby, I’d have to have IVF.

He said that if I’d waited another three years, I would never be able to have children at all. I wouldn’t have any eggs left.’

Well, in a situation like this you will have to look at the positive side and that is that with the help of IVF and technology she can be able to give birth and have children. But this is such a great way to show the effects of crash dieting and bulimia or anorexia because no one ever thinks that it will happen to them….

She added: ‘I hope they’ll see what’s happened to me and realise what they’re doing – the long-term effects. I’m 27 and I can’t have children naturally. Being stick-thin – is it worth that?’

Full Interview available in the next issue of Heat magazine.

Disneyland Paris Resort Review

2011-07-16T09:49:00.000-07:00

Came back from a holiday in Paris, France and for a day we visited the famous and well marketed Disneyland Paris Resort. We booked our tickets online and there was a 15% discount were you could visit both parks and so we went for that because it was the same price as visiting one park. So we went to Disneyland park and Walt Disney studios.

Disneyland Park

Our first venture was the Disneyland Park and when you get there is this big beautiful pink castle, it's massive and beautiful....perfect for taking pictures. Later on that day we found out that the building was actually a hotel. When you enter the park there are a lot of buildings...beautiful on the outside, you look in and it's shops selling Disney stuff. Throughout the park there were more shops than there were rides.

After 5 minutes walking then you will find some rides and the thing that I found quite annoying was that you don't know what you are queuing for, what the ride is like....in many UK theme parks you will actually see out in the open what the ride does but in Disneyland you don't. The first ride we queued for about 45 minutes and the ride was horrible, boring, not worth the time we waited....

We did a lot of walking and then we found a train, yay. But there was only one train and it went all around that park. So then we waited for about 20 minutes and at first we thought the train only comes to our spot and takes people around and comes back to that spot...then they all leave but when the train came a few people left and our thoughts were do these people want another go...But after going on we realised that the train stopped at 4 or 5 places in the park.

We went to other sections of the park, we went on a boat ride, which was alright but nothing special because it only went around in a circle....At that time we were all tired of the park so we looked at the map and thought take the train back to the entrance or walk....If we took the train we would have to wait but if we walked we could get lost, as we had been before. We chose the train as we were tired.

We waited for about 25minutes for the train then we went out of that park and got something to eat.

Walt Disney Studios

The first place we wanted to go on was the animation studios and the doors were open when we got in and there was a man speaking on a television screen, to us we were like is this it...then the doors opened and there were seats...it was like a cinema and on the screen it was a short clip showing all the cartoons, cartoon movies that Disney had ever made, Lion king, Mulan, cars...ect. Honestly, I could have gone on youtube and done the same thing, it wasn't anything new or of interest to me.

Then we went into another room and it was like a cinema but there was a man speaking...there were headphones were you could change the language...That was also quite boring....they tried to be funny but no one was laughing and the headphones were too loud so I just took them off. But when you got outside there was this drawing thing and we tried it out. The person teaches you how to draw Winnie the poo.

We went on a Toy story ride and the waiting time was about 15 minutes but I am assuming that was because the ride was quick and boring. We did see the Hollywood tower hotel but it had a waiting time of 45 minutes and we were tired, exhausted and the thought of waiting that long for something that went up and down no matter how high was just not going to happen.

I remember there a building which had captivating sign and label that would make you think that there was something interesting inside....So we said lets go in....I think we waited about 15/ 20 minutes outside...my feet were killing me...then the doors opened and the first thing I see is a women with a mic and we are like no, no,no....not again... It was obvious it was going to be another...oh, it was called special effects....probably another line of videos about Disney’s special effects) Luckily we quickly got out of there before the doors closed and we took some pictures on the throne and fake Hollywood sign, shh don't tell anyone.

I think, if you were going to go Paris, you cannot not go to Disneyland because it's advertised so amazingly and I give the Disney people that as they sure can advertise the hell out of their resort. But the reality of the place is it's not magic....you queue for x amount of time for any ride and their rides are not even that good. Their designs are good but the product is horrible....I would never ever go to Disney land Paris again even if they paid me...I don't mind queuing but at least a person should know what they are waiting for and even not they should have a good ride....I would rather have gone to many UK theme parks...their soooo much better than what I experienced that day.

Even the children didn't enjoy their time there....I am not trying to be discouraging but to be honest...If I had seen this maybe we wouldn't have gone or my hopes wouldn't have soooo high.

Reviews From Others

Worst amusement park ever.

If you're in France, this is the absolute last thing you should be wanting to do. Save your money and go to real castles, even if you have children.

- By England

This place was such a rip-off. I completely understand they need to make a buck or two, but this was beyond the pale. We went with 2x 8 year old boys and they were quite bored. The only decent rides that were there were a 40 minute wait. You have to be so patient as all the rides require a lengthy wait. They were too short for the main ride they wanted to go on. If you have deep pockets, this place is totally up your alley. Be totally prepared to keep putting your hand in your pocket all day long. The U.S. Disney theme parks are much better.

- By Ashley

We went to euro Disney while on a family holiday from Australia. All my daughter wanted to do for her birthday was to go to Disney. We went all 9 of us and were shocked at how terrible it was. Long delays many rides not even working ( which we weren't told as we paid) Smoking parents everywhere. Hands down the worst day of our European holiday. My sad little girl left after being on 2 dud rides quoting " Never go to Disney it ruins childhood dreams"

- By Kings

DON'T GO - especially in school holidays.
HUGE QUEUES - in 2 days got on 4 rides. Children could not cope with hour long queues - even the carousel had a queue of 25 minutes. Managed 1 queue for 45 minutes to meet a character. Missed half of the parade (couldn't see the dancers and characters) because didn't stake a pitch an hour before it started. Also queued to get in (despite having tickets), queued to get a buggy, queued for coffee, queued for toilets Etc.
FEW CHARACTERS - saw 1 character with an hour queue on first day. Had expected to see them everywhere.
I knew it would be a 'rip off', but wasn't prepared for how bad.

- By Lee

My husband and I recently returned from a long weekend in Paris. Since we were ahead of schedule, we thought we would catch some Euro Disney Magic! What we caught was very long lines, Fast Pass booths closed, several attractions closed, too many restaurants/cafes and too few attractions. The staff was terrible at loading attraction cars - normally, you line up and they try to fill all the seats, right? 20% of the cars that went by were empty. Also, in six hours, we did not see ONE charachter! It was unbelievable considering that it was so busy. At best, it was lousy. If you are an American, you will most likely hate it. Another poster said the entrance was beautiful, but it went downhill FAST after that. I agree.Europa Park in Germany is 10 X better.

- By BobbyBaby

Went last week with my 9 year old, 5 year old, husband and brother. Queued for over an hour for each ride, only to be told when we got near the front the rides had broken. Not even offered fast passes to get on them quicker the next time. The park was so busy we only managed to get on 8 rides between 5 of us in 4 days! The queue jumping with the French was terrible and everywhere you went was so expensive it stopped being enjoyable. We got told it would be great to book "breakfast in the park" at 8 am which entitled you to the park being exclusively for the people who booked to go there before it opened. What it didnt tell you was that the rides are not open till 10 am. which meant we had grumpy tired children the rest of the day for no reason! I have since been advised that Orlando is the best place to go for magic for the children (we spent the whole time trying to make it magical for the kids so all wasnt lost). Not a place we will ever return to again !

- By Wales

The theming of the park is excellent, but it was just so crowded that we could barely move. Queues for the bigger "thrill" rides were over an hour, and the fast-track option was sometimes offering a time of 2.5 hours later which (baring in mind you can only have one fast-track "open" at a time), is of little use.

There were also queues for toilets, food, drinks - everything in fact. We even had to queue up to leave the park.I expected a certain amount of queuing and crowding, but these were at completely unbearable levels and spoilt any enjoyment.

I also actually believe that other theme parks, such as Thorpe Park have a better range of rides for anyone over 10, although Disney wins on the theming.

- By Holly

You will be bitterly disappointed if you have had the luxury of going to Walt Disney World Florida. Disneyland Paris lacks the sparkle, magic, good rides and excellent customer services that the Americans are so good at. In the parade the eyes of Simba (Lion King) were broken - its just something you cant imagine happening at the Florida parks. The customer services was non-existent, in the USA the staff fall over themselves to help you, in Paris you cant find any staff to help you. Very disappointing, we wont be returning.

- By Plum

Reviews from Tripadvisor... Check it out yourself.

Would I recommend it?? Heck NOOOOO, Save your money and time. No but some people do enjoy it and some people don't we went with such HIGH hopes and expectations and were left feeling down about it. If you decide to go, we truelly hope you have a great time, everyone is different.

Franklin and Bash - New Tv Show Review

2011-07-16T09:12:00.000-07:00

The new television show called Franklin and Bash aired this week on the UK TV channel E4 and prior to the airing there was a lot of promo and ads of the shows. So I thought I might as well try it since I saw a face that I recognised and it was Mark-Paul Harry Gosselaar.

I used to watch Saved by the bell when I was child and Zack Morris was one of my favourite characters in the show, oh the good times....lol.

Anyways, I watched the first episode and about the first 10 minutes it's a bit like "Is this it." Then it starts to get funny, silly and interesting. I was surprised at how much I liked it and that makes me think that they might have something good up their sleeves. I am open to watching any new shows but it has to grab my attention and has to be interesting in its own way.
This show was about two streetwise lawyers who take down a stuffy law firm then they are recruited by the head of the firm to bring new life to the work place.
My opinion- If you haven’t tried it, go for it you might be surprised….

Beyonce- 4 Album Review

2011-06-29T07:57:00.001-07:00

RATE: ★★★★★

Songs: 13

Artist: Beyonce Knowles

So after seeing her Glastonbury performance and I liked some of her news songs so I thought I would go and buy her album “4.” So here is the review.

1) 1+1 – This song is a beautiful love song and I like it.

2) I care- I really like this song, it grows on you.

3) I miss you- Another good song, I really like her voice and the different ranges it goes into and the beat as well. Good song

4) Best thing I never had- One of my favourites because if you have ever had a crash and that person shut you down, you can so relate to this song because it was truly the best thing I never had. Also her voice sounds amazing and it’s a good to sing along to.

5)Party- This is probably my favourite or one of my favourite songs on this album, I love the slow jam/ 90’s Rnb kind of feel to it that it has…I have had this on reply for some time and it never gets old.

6) Rather die young- This is probably the worst song in the album for me, but that’s just me.

7) Start over- I like this song, I can relate to it and the lyrics and the messages on this is so strong like her voice on this song. Good song.

8) Love On top- This is also one of my favourite songs and I love it because it will make you dance, it’s such an upbeat, groovy, soulful song.

9) Countdown- Not really feeling this song, it’s upbeat but I don’t really like it. It has a bit of a reggae feel to it.

10) End of time- Probably the best dance track in this album in my opinion, love this song.

11) I was here- Best balled in this album hands down, it is really emotional but a good song as well.

12) Run this world (Girls)- Honestly this should not have been her first single because there are so many better songs in this album but it’s not a bad song, sometimes I find myself dancing to it.

All in all I would have to say it is an amazing album and to follow up I am Sasha fierce is very hard because that was an all-round great album but I really like the route that Beyoncé took with this album because it’s not a pop/dance/techno album it’s more about ballads, Rnb and soul album. Also her voice and the lyrics are amazing and it’s a solid album that I feel I will still be listening to in ten years’ time, she really took a risk because the music now is about dance music and auto tune, which I think is horrible but people still buy it. It’s like she went back ten/ twenty years’ time and made a heartfelt/ meaningful and beautiful album, which is very rare.

Would I recommend it?? Yes, I would recommend it but if you are looking for dance/techno songs then this album is not for you…but otherwise GET IT.

Beyonce Headlining Glastonbury 2011 Review

2011-06-29T05:57:00.000-07:00

Hate her or love her I feel like if anyone actually sat down and watched her perform they would have been blown away like I was. I would have to say this is her best performance ever.

There was some dancing which was on point through-out and she was wearing heels, like it's hard for some people to even walk in heels but she was dancing and everything for almost two hours. Also her singing was amazing, especially when she sang halo, 1+1 and the best I never had.

Now a days it's very rare to see a person actually sing live with a live band, without auto tune and is not lip-singing. It is very rare and also you could see the raw emotions and how energetic she was because I would be so tired but her drive, energy and passion was amazing and on top.

In my opinion she is the nearest performer to even touch what MJ was like. It was amazing because there were moments when you were like WOW. It was crazy.

One of my favourite moments:

Jennifer Hudson - No One Gonna Love You- Official Music Video Review

2011-06-25T05:00:00.000-07:00

Honestly, after dream girls and the first spotlight I had categorised Jennifer as a boring artist...I love Rnb music but now a days Rnb artists are usually really boring and putting out boring music or their doing this pop/dance/ techno music. Unlike a decade or two decades ago when Rnb artists like boyz to men, Whitney Houston and soo much more would make amazing, interesting, powerful music and videos.

But then today I saw Jennifer Hudson’s video, I gave it a try and I was surprised because it had some acting, a bit dancing, a story line...the video was cute and I actually like the song. This is a plus one for J-hud and for Rnb artists...and it also shows you that an artist can be fully dressed and still make a video look good.

Peep the video below:

Last Day of College Today

2011-06-21T13:18:00.000-07:00

Woow, it was my last day of Sixth Form College today and it's actually hit me that it's over, 2 years is gone. I can still remember my first day, I was so scared but yet so naive. In high school you think you know it all but you don't really know anything but then as I started to go to college I started to learn more about me and life in this big world. I know I still have a lot more to learn in the years to come but I am glad I went there even though I complained about it sometimes,lol.

Best memories about college were the amazing new people that I met there, I learnt more about other cultures and some beliefs that people have. Having jokes and fun times with other people. How I will miss them, weird how people come in to your life but then when you see them on the last day you think "I might never see this person ever again."

Many people pass through your life, either for a minute, a month or 2 years but your family will always be there.

As they say, as one door closes another one opens and I guess my next door will either be university were I will be going next year or something else, if I find it,lol. I used to see University as something that was sooo far away but now here I am going, I am a bit scared, the experience of not knowing is what makes it worse.

Anyways, I want to relax and enjoy the summer, these two years have had their goods and their bads but I feel like I had to go through it to become a better person and learn more about myself in the process.

My last day of college – 21/06/2011

A Rainy Summer Day

2011-06-16T07:10:00.000-07:00

So today I had an exam which lasted for about 2 hours and in the morning it was a bit cloudy but I didn't think to bring an umbrella, in my mind it never occurred that it would actually rain before I got back home. ( How stupid I was)

I got a lift to college and it was raining a little bit and then I did my exam and after two hours it was still raining but still just a little bit, not heavy rain. So here I am no umbrella, no hoody jumper or a scarf to put over my head. I think to myself should I wait 25 minutes for a bus in the rain or should I walk and save some money. Guess what I decided, I saved some money and at first I was walking really fast but then the rain calmed down and my pace started to slow down; around the same time the bus went past me.

But at that moment I was already half way through my journey anyways so it didn't bother me but then the rain started to get worse and worse, I was walking through the park at that time and I was like the only person there so I started running. That’s my exercise for today done,lol but seriously the rain just wouldn't stop and there I was moving in the trees hoping it wouldn't be so bad.

At this time I had a jacket and top inside and I thought of removing my jacket and placing it on top of my head but when I tried to do it I felt cold so I just carried on walking, my hair became wet and rain drops began to drip onto my face. I had to wipe my face with my jumper sleeve in an attempt to try and not to look so wet. Somehow I felt embarrassed all those people in their nice dry cars passing me, people in umbrella and hoody and here I was with nothing.

It's so weird because as soon as I got in door the clouds cleared up and there's no more rain. Now I don't know if I love or hate the rain. I know it’s not that serious but I just thought I would write this down for memories in the future.

Marsha Ambrosius - Late Nights & Early Mornings Official Music Video

2011-06-13T14:30:00.000-07:00

I didn't really know who she was and to me she is a new artist but I love her voice on this song and the song is very soulful and sweet,lol. But anyways, the video. I really like the message that this video has and it's something that a lot of artists and the media don't really want to talk about. They would rather glamorous sex, violence instead.

The message in this video is about STI's especially HIV and how not using protection even that one time, that one minute could change your life. You cannot tell if a person has it shoot sometimes people will have it for a long time and not know they have it. Really good message about the reality of having unprotected sex and I hope that this video will make more people think before doing anything they might end up regretting.

Peep the video below:

Beauty Tip: How to get rid of Spots or Acne

2011-06-11T05:11:00.000-07:00

I am going to talk about three ways and things that I do to get rid of my spots.

1) Popping the spots

It surprises me that a lot of people don't pop their spots, when I started getting spots, I remember my mother telling me when I had a massive spot on my face and that I should pop it and as the years went by it's just something that I do.

But to some people popping you're spots is really bad, like my friend she had a massive spot on her nose and you could see the yellow stuff coming out and she was talking about "yeah, I put some oil on it and all this." That really surprised me that people would put oil on it instead of just popping the pimple and then their surprised when the pimple doesn’t subside after putting oil on it.

So I did some research and some people don't pop the pimples on their face because it will cause scarring but I have been popping mine for years now, my mother as well and we both don’t have any scarring. From talking to people in real life and seeing what has happened to my friends. One got bad scarring when she scratched her spots, I don't know why she did that but she did but a few months later they were gone. Also I have noticed that if you leave a spot/pimple for a long time then it will grow and then fade away but they will be a scar but that will also go away after some time.

You should find the right time to pop you spots and that is when the yellow/white stuff is visible or when you touch the spot it fills full...and that way in a day or so after popping the pimple you won't even know that there was even a pimple because walking around with a massive pimple on your nose with visible yellow stuff is not a good look at all and you should definitely pop/ squeeze it because the pus has to go somewhere, it's not right that it goes back into your body.

2)Egg Mask

This is probably the best way to get rid of your spots, acne or pimples because right after you have done the egg mask you can see and feel the difference. Also you only need an egg and if you don't have one in your home right now then it will only cost like hardly anything to buy some. If you are allergic to eggs then this is not advisable but if you are not allergic I would give it a try.

I try to do the egg mask once a week when my skin is really bad but if my skin is clear then I don't do it. I use ordinary eggs not organic and it still does the same thing. I am going to post a video below that will show you how to do it and hopefully you will try it out and see the difference instantly.

Peep Egg Mask Tutorial video Below:

3) St.Ives Apricot Scrub

I have been using this scrub for a long time now because it really works, I have tried so many other products like Clearasil and all those products but they would work the first week or so and then nothing.

This product works because it has these rocks, sand things, i don't know that you can really feel when you are scrubbing your face and when you are done and you have washed your face you can really feel the difference and that is probably why this product is number 1 in the UK. It lasts really long as well, which is good because I don't want to be going into town to buy the same product very week or so.

I tend to use the apricot scrub three times a week and it still does the trick even after all these years.

So those are three things that I use to get rid of my spots/acne and hopefully one of them or three of them will help you to have a clearer face.

Summer Time Wearing a Skirt with Big Calves

2011-06-04T04:24:00.000-07:00

The sun is truly out and I want to enjoy it. I have big calves and before I used to wish I didn’t have them but now I feel like I love my body from my hair to my toes more than I did when I was dieting and all that… I wanted to be someone else not me and I wanted to be a skinny person who could wear short, shorts and a white vest and look great but as I yearned for that body I started to hate this body and that’s not good for your mental state at all.

Today as I was going to wash my hair I was like I am going to wear a skirt, no leggings, no tights just a skirt, I bought two skirts when last year but I have only worn one once but with tights…Their just cute summer skirts. So I shaved my legs, put lotion on them and then we went outside to the garden and enjoyed the sun…It was actually really fun and I felt so girly and free.

I even saw my neighbours and it was just normal, had a good chat and I forgot my worries and fears of not wearing skirt. It’s fun, it feels good and it’s baby steps,lol. I don’t have to be a size 10/ size 2 whatever, to wear a skirt/ dress and feel good. It’s a shame that I have been hiding myself in all these clothes and I have gotten myself brainwashed into thinking that your legs have to be this small to look good.

It’s weird though because a year ago I would have never thought I would feel this positively about my body because is the time many women would be exercising and dieting because they want to look good for the summer and I guarantee you that I would have been one of those women also exercising like mad. But now I don’t care, I just want to enjoy the moment, have fun and as I do these little things like wearing a skirt without no tights, leggings. To someone else it’s nothing but to me it’s a big step for me for my confidence and the relationship I have with my body.

Rihanna- Man Down Official Video Review

2011-06-01T12:10:00.001-07:00

I have just viewed Rihanna's new video Man down and wow, the beginning when she shoots the man, I didn't think they would show that in the video but they did and I am glad. Then the whole video goes by and it's beautiful and nice. You get to see the easy life and beauty of Jamaica. Then the club scene comes which is followed by the rape, which I think was done amazingly. Like I feel tense and like shocked when I saw it. Her acting skills are there and it really surprised me.

I think she is growing as an artist and this video hits a raw point were the society doesn't like to talk or even see these scenes and would rather be oblivious of them and I am so surprised that Rihanna and her people did a video about this and the song is amazing, my personal favourite from the album and the video was a real surprise, it had a clear story. Like then I think about Beyonce's run this town video and I would actually put Rihanna as the better artist now because Beyonce danced her way on that video but there was no meaning, story or anything but dancing and that got old after a few days but Rihanna's video, it had substance, I guess is the word.

Peep the video below:

90210 Season 3 Finale Review (Spoiler Alert)

2011-06-01T09:15:00.001-07:00

I am a big fan of 90210 and I have watched the first season and I have just finished watching season 3 finale. This season has been good overall; there was the whole Naomi rape thing with the teacher which was very fascinating. Then there was the Teddy being Gay storyline, which I thought was interesting because it makes you understand about Gay people and them accepting who they are. Then there was the Ade and her singing career and Silver and Navid getting together as well....and her revenge on them. Then Ivy and Raj...Plus Annie's crazy cousin.

((THIS IS A SPOILER))

Season finale review:

First off, I love Naomi and Max together as a couple because his different from all the other guys in the show and their cute together. But the previous episode they were caught cheating on a paper and Naomi saves Max from being expelled and says it was her who did it...But then on graduation in front of everyone he says I cheated not Naomi, which I think is really stupid...Because she was already expelled...he doesn't gain anything from saying it like really Max and you are supposed to be smart. Then his parents think she is a bad influence on him so his moving to Cambridge (london) and I’m like really now, if he loved her enough to get expelled why can't he tell his parents no I love Naomi, I am not going at least be a man, he is 18 not 5. Then the only shock of the finale is Naomi getting pregnant, is this true or is this her just lying in order to make him stay. Who knows but I want them to stay together.

Ivy and Raj were the main characters in this episode with their wedding and I like them but it was a bit boring, no drama except the mother saying I don't approve, which is really pointless because we all knew she was going to change her mind anyways. Also I didn't feel the love and chemistry between them two that would make me go aww what a beautiful wedding. I just felt nothing for that wedding.

Then there was the whole Annie and Liam thing which I thought was pointless to it's self because he didn't want to go college and she was mad at him, which is very childish and what a surprise they made up in the end...Waste of time right there.

We come to the whole Silver, Navid, Ade situation, the build up was amazing but the way they found out, kicked her out and moved on....It seemed sooo rushed...that it took away the action. Then the way Navid and Silver made up like that it felt so rushed and forced. With Navid and Ade I saw the chemistry and love but when Silver and Navid made up it full on forced and rushed. And then the whole I am going to jump of the cliff, situation, I was like she is either going to jump or someone pushes her and we don't know who. Neither of my ideas worked and she walked away which was boring.
Ermm, I usually love all their episodes and season 1 and 2 finale's were Jaw dropping and shocking but I was kind-off disappointed with this one. It felt rushed and like the writer's didn't really put too much thought and effort into it. I expected soo much more. However, since their finished with high school, I am not really sure if they’re going to axe all the original’s and start off with new people, which would be a horrible idea. Or their going to follow them into Uni, jobs and all that. But I do hope that they keep Naomi there....they cannot replace her, she makes the show for me,lol....

My Zodiac sign- Pisces

2011-05-31T05:30:00.001-07:00

So I was talking to one of my family member and somehow we started talking about our signs and mine is Pisces and my family member didn't know what his was so he googled it and found this cool website and it described his characteristics spot on. So I was like "Could you look up Pisces?" I was shocked because some of the things that were said were so accurate. I don't really take the signs seriously but it was so accurate about me that I had to write about it.

Here are my strengths:
-Compassionate

- Adaptable

- Accepting

- Devoted

- Imaginative

I don't know, it's hard to acknowledge you're positives...so I don't really know about this...moving on.

Here are my negatives:
-Oversensitive (Yes, I have to agree with that one)
- Indecisive (Spot on, with my career, I can't decide, I change my mind so much)
- Self-pitying - (Well, I don't know about this, lol)
- Lazy - (I put my hands up, I am sometimes,lol)
- Escapist ( I had to Google this and find out what it means "someone who escapes into fantasy." This is 50/50 I guess, but it does have some truth to it.

Here are some quotes that I thought were spot on about me: (Why do I keep saying spot on,lol)

When they are independent and inspired by life's events, their creativity comes shining through (True) but they are unable to be on their own for long before they start dreaming in their imaginary world of happy people and happy endings. (So true, the amount of times I day dream of happy ending and other things are crazy) They need other people to keep them grounded and on the right track.

Pisces will go out of their way to help a friend. They are extremely sensitive and loyal. (This is also true, I have found myself going out my way to help my close friends but I have come to realise that I am quite sensitive because with someone else they won't care about some situations but I will. That's my down fall I guess.)

Pisces does not take well to a position of leadership or high business person, they are too sensitive and lacking in self-discipline and lacking self-confidence for a positions such as that. (That is true, I have never been one for being a team leader or anything like that) What they are good at is writing, acting, poetry, or being musicians. (I think writing and maybe acting is sort-off my thing)

Pisces are excellent at anything that tugs at the heart strings and mystical/spiritual. They are extremely creative and can use their skills of creativity and their understanding of people to inspire others. Unfortunately, most Pisces take the easy way out in life and never attain the degree of fame that they possibly could, they have to stop self-doubting themselves because they are capable of being good role models and leaders to others, people do look up to them. (Inspirational or what, I love writing because I am able to imagine things and bring them to life but then there's fear and the fact that writing was not in my plan of life...so their right for me to write it is so much harder than just taking a step back and going to uni, job, family Done)

They have extreme compassion and they feel the pain of others. If something is wrong in the world that affects them, it affects them deeply, they take it to heart and feel extreme feelings regarding the matter. When they are happy, they are extremely happy and when they are sad, they are extremely depressed. (How true this whole paragraph is)

Pisces have an intuitive and psychic ability more then any other zodiac signs. They trust their gut feelings and if they do not, they quickly learn to because they realize that their hunches are usually correct. (This, this right here is the truth because there were times when I was meant to do something or go out somewhere and I would have this bad feeling and before I would ignore it and go anyways but then when I would go it would either be boring or a negative situation that I could not have even imagined would occur with someone. So then when I had a bad feeling I would say no I am not doing it and I would feel relief and I would have good day. So this is spot on the dot.)

I have just realised that you will learn a bit more me and also my downfalls with this post. But it's interesting to know that these things that you do are you. I never used to really believe in these signs but the way some of these things are soo true about me...it makes me believe it a bit more.

Here's the link if you want to check out your signs:

http://zodiac-signs-astrology.com/zodiac-signs/pisces.htm

Something Borrowed Movie review

2011-05-31T03:44:00.000-07:00

Rate:★★★★

Length: 1 hour, 43 minutes

Where: Cinema

Age: 12

Genre: Romance

I haven't been to the cinema in a while and I saw the trailer of this movie and it looked interesting so me and my friends decided to go and see this movie yesterday.

Pro's- I really liked the storyline, it wasn't predictable and it was really interesting to watch. Also it really makes you think about if you were in that situation because if someone cheats on you with your best friend you not only lose you're fiancé but you also lose your best friend...which isn't good. I am against cheating but then it's like they love each other and they could be soul mates but then what do you do, choose your soul mate or you're best friend?

The film surprisingly had it's funny moments, which had me cracking up and also let's not forget Mr hunk. Colin egglesfield who was the man in the middle of the best friends started to look hot at the middle of the film and you just fall in love with him at the end,lol.

Con's- Yes, one negative I would say would be the best friend...Don't want to spoil it but as you watch the film it becomes sooo obvious that the best friend loves the girl....It's always the same thing the male friend gives advise to the girl chasing some dude, when he secretly loves the girl himself.....so I just thought him being in love with her was pointless really...But that's about it for the negatives.

Would I reccomend it? ---- It depends on the type of films you like, but if you like a bit of romance and comedy then Yes, I reccomend this film.

Peep Trailer below:

Adele singer speaks about her figure, weight

2011-05-24T11:02:00.000-07:00

I love Adele's music and after watching the graham norton show were she was a guest, I liked her personality as well. She seems like a funny, down to earth kind of person, which is very rare in the music biz.

Here is a bit from Adele's interview in Q magazine:

Someone Like You singer Adele also spoke about how she has come to terms with her figure, and has no intention of slimming down by dieting or hitting the gym.

She said: 'I never fell under that spell. I'm a size 16, normal.

'But I wouldn't encourage anyone to be unhealthy overweight just as much as I wouldn't encourage a f***ing Ralph Lauren model to suck ice when she feels like fainting.

'I'm just encouraging people to stop bullying each other. I've got a lot of things on my to-do list and that's right at the bottom. When I can squeeze in time, I don't want to go down the f***ing gym, I want to go to the pub with my mates.

'I can't be bothered. It's not even lazy, it's just other things thrill me in life.'

I luv this because she's living her life and her weight isn't a problem because most of the women who are not seen as being slim have all lost weight and made a lot of money from it, some using weight-watchers, surgery and just exercising and diets...It's a shock to see a women like Adele who hasn't gone on a diet and lost all the weight...

But imagine if she lost the weight. If you go on her video "rolling in the deep," there are a lot of comments about her weight but I think it's part of her package, who she is and I think she would lose her spark if she lost the weight, but if she loses it to make her feel better or health reasons then thats fine.

An example, for what I am talking about is jennifer hudson, she lost 80Ib and to me I might be wrong but she lost that extra part of her that made her special. That made us love her in Dream girls, wow, when she sang And I am telling you, I almost cried. But now she's boring and she is no different to Beyonce, Ciara, Rihanna, Keri hilson...

Also the funny thing is she's lost all this weight and her album is not doing as well as her first, even with all this promo but then you have Adele who probably wears the same dress size that Jennifer used to have before the weight loss and she is breaking records and she is touching people's hearts with her voice, music and talent. However, if Jennifer wasn't happy with her body and it made her misery then it's good she lost the weight and she is happy now that she has lost the weight. But it would be sad if she was put under pressure to lose the weight by the media or she lost the weight for more publicity because she was on weight-watcher ads on tv, she was on every fitness, diet, healthy eating, tabloid magazine talking about her weight and that's a lot of money to gain from losing weight.

Which goes on with what Adele also said in Q magazine:

One of the most refreshing qualities about Adele is that, unlike many of today's music stars, she has never succumbed to the commercial side of the industry.

And the London-born star insists she will never lend her name to a product.

She explained: 'I think it's shameful when you sell out.

'It depends on what kind of artist you wanna be but I don't want my name anywhere near another brand.

'I don't wanna be tainted or haunted - I don't wanna sell out in any way.'

'I don't come from money and I'm not fussed by money.

'I like nice things now I've got it but I'd still be alive and healthy and a good person if I didn't have money now.

'But if I was money-driven, I'd be very excited about the money coming in.

'I'd be the face of full-fat Coke. Get another million in the bank.'

Having a bad day!!!

2011-05-24T10:22:00.000-07:00

You know when I woke up this morning I didn't think I would feel the way I feel now, that I would feel so down and you can't shake it off or completly forget about it.

It all started at home were someone was just having their own mood swings and just taking it out on anyone and I could take that and I got ready for my day out for college and that was a mess and it was just a shock at what occured and it made me feel so bad that I just can't deal with certain people anymore.

Then when you are tired from you're day and work and all the BS you get home and then there's someone else who's ready to argue and all that BS. Funny how this ishh always happens on the same day...Always!!

It would have alright if you go to work, college, school whatever and you have a bad day then you come home to loving nice people but if it's both places you have no where to just relax, forget and ease the tention...then what chance did you have. I know it's nothing compared to what other people in world might be going through but I feel down and unhappy right now and maybe I will be able to read this in the future and have memories of the shizz I had to experience.

I will get over it, we all have bad days and you know life isn't easy...but you get on with it.

In tribute to my bad day today, here's Daniel Powter - Bad Day

Beyonce- Run The World (Girls) Official video review

2011-05-19T06:07:00.000-07:00

First off I wanna talk about the song...It's not her best...I liked pon de floor but the lyrics on this song im not feeling aswell...I don't know...Even though I don't like the song I think it has a great message that empowers women. That is something Beyonce has always done, she does songs that empower women and not degrade them, e.g. independent women, single ladies, bills bills bills and so on.

But I have just seen the video and it's been on replay...I love the video. The dancing is amazing...I love how she brought a bit of african culture into it...What I love about this is you know she gives it 1000% and her drive and hard-works shows thats why she's still doing her thing to this day...She doesn't need to dye her hair red, kiss a girl or even sing about religion to make her music good...She just shows her talent...People think sells = talent...nooo...No other female artist can touch Beyonce...she's just amazing...

Peep the video below:

Room by Emma Donoghue Book Review

2011-05-13T13:26:00.000-07:00

RATE:★★★

Pages: 401

Author:Emma Donoghue

Published: January 2011

I came home early one day and when I switched on the TV there was the TV book club and they were talking about this book. From the description of the story it seemed interesting so I said let me just get it and thats what I did. On the book there are 22 reviews from magazines to people so this is a popular book, so I am just going to give my little review.

This book is basically about Jack who is five years old and has always lived in Room with his mother because she was kidnapped and trapped in that room by a man called Old Nick.

Pro’s- The way the author writes this book as a five year old is amazing and when you finish the book you will be like it had to be written from the child’s prospective and not the mothers. I liked the story…It was original and it gave you an inside of what actually can happen in that situation…even though there have been stories in newspapers of this kind of thing this is much vivid. I also enjoyed reading about the bond with the mother and child. In the room their bond is really close and special.

It’s really a book that you can’t put down, you want to know what will happen next and the little boy kind-off melts you’re heart, his so cute. I read this book in 2 days.

Cons- Most of the first chapter was honestly not interesting, not much really happened…it was just dragging along…but it was readable but not that interesting but I guess you have to read the first chapter to understand the characters more and their story. Also the last chapter after all the action kind of dragged. It was just a repeat of the same thing like describing a chair in great detail and then describing a table in the same way but different concept….I don’t want to ruin it, lol…but after a while in the last chapter it just feels like you are reading the same thing just in different environments but I just carried on to just finish the book but readable chapter but not great as the other chapters.

Would I recommend this book?? Yes, I feel like after reading this book you will learn something about yourself.

Rihanna- California King Bed Official music video

2011-05-09T13:50:00.000-07:00

Is it only me who like's this calmed down, beautiful and elegent Rihanna better than the one who walks around with her bum and cleavage on display. Obviously, it's not going to last but why not enjoy it,lol.

Peep below California King Bed Official music video

It reminds me of Unfaithful abit....This video is beautiful and gorgeous at the same time...Far better than S&M. I also like the song, it really showcases her unique and strong voice without the base or other distructions...Good video.

Nicole Scherzinger - Right There ft. 50 Cent Official Music Video

2011-05-06T11:13:00.001-07:00

I like the video and the song...It's got this smooth rnb vide to it...Also her body looked amazing...watching things like this makes you want a body like her's...haha so that's how they brainwash us...no jokes. I like the dancing aswell expec..when they slowed it down; the moves are crazy. Also 50 cent...I see what he is doing first down on me then buzzin with mann which I loved...Both fun songs to dance to now this song. I feel like he chooses wisely with his collabo's. Good for him can't wait for a new album because the last one was a fail...enough said,lol. Ohh, I love the clothes she's wearing in this video...their so unique and they look good.

Enjoy the video:

Malissa Jones: Once Britains fattest teen now fighting anorexia

2011-05-04T10:39:00.000-07:00

How in the world does that happen, this story is very sad but also it opens a lot of people's eyes to the truths of surgery because everytime there is a show about a person 6 tonnes or world's fattest this or that. They show you how much they eat and how it saddens their family and then the surgery and the quick weight loss. But they don't show you how many people lose their lives at these surgeries...how many people are unhappy about their bodies after.

Here is Malissa's story:

A woman who was once Britain's fattest teenager is now battling with anorexia after her life was turned upside down by a gastric bypass operation.

Malissa Jones, 21, lost so much weight that she now tips the scales at just 8 stone. Four years ago, before her surgery, doctors were warning her that she had to take drastic action after ballooning to 34 stone.

They warned her she had to shed 20 stone or would die within months. Now the pendulum has swung the other way for Malissa, from Selby, North Yorkshire with doctors now warning she could die in six months unless she increases her food intake.

The sad thing is she is only 21 years old....But I feel like her being labelled as Britains fattest teen probably had a negative impact on her mentally because it is horrible to be called fat or names by people at school or work...where ever but when the whole country sees you as the fattest teen it must be horrific and she probably just wanted to lose the weight and the label quickly go away.

I also think that some of the medical proffession's don't handle the situation very good at all because imagnie someone telling you...if you don't lose 20 stones you will die. The truth of the matter is I doubt she would have died in six months because she didn't just wake up one morning and she was 34 stones. They should have supported her and guided her on to ways she could have SLOWLY lost the weight and not scared her into thinking that having surgery was the only way she would have lost the weight to save her life in only 6 months.

Malissa was the youngest person in the world to have a stomach bypass when surgeons performed the £10,000 NHS operation in January 2008.

She consumed 15,000 calories a day from gorging on chocolate, crisps and junk food - seven and a half times the recommended 2,000 calories for a girl of her age. But parents Richard and Dawn were unable to stop her food cravings.

A day's food included about eight Mars bars, 10 packets of crisps, several sandwiches and takeaways from the local chippie. I spent all my pocket money on food.

'I was only happy when I was eating,' she told Closer Magazine

15,000 calories that's a lot and I feel like instead of having surgery they should have encourged her to do more sports like swimming, walking or riding a bike. 3 times a week. It's fun...she would have lost weight and all the skin around her body would still look good not like now. Also instead of saying 15000 calories to 2.000 they could have slowly introduced healthier foods and she could still eat what she wanted....Also councelling would have been good because she said eating made her happy...why? What made her sad...bullying/ family issues. It would have taken her years to lose 20 stones but she would have gained so much more and she would be truelly healthy...

'I know it sounds ungrateful, but I preferred my body when I was fat,' the 19-year-old said.

'At least it was firm and curvy, not droopy and saggy. I had nice firm arms - now the skin just hangs and I have to cover them up because they look so awful.'

'I hoped being slimmer would mean I could wear a bikini and go swimming, but I'm too ashamed of my body.

After she miscarried a baby at 15 weeks, Malissa was distraught when doctors told her she is unlikely to carry a baby full term as her scarred stomach can't take the pressure of a growing uterus.

That is one of the worst things a women could hear...you can't have anymore children...Sooo many horrible things at only the age of 21 years old. To wake up and exercise 3 times a week is not hard and to have 1 or 2 mars bar instead of 8 can be hard but if people around her had advised her and supported her right she could have fought this...and anyone else who is considering this opperation...it's not worth it. I would rather go for a walk everyday....forget diets/ pills all that is a waste of money....

Malissa grew up in a family who all had weight problems. Her mother Dawn, 46, is now 16st but weighed 10st more before having her own gastric band fitted.

However her mother said: 'I don't regret encouraging her to have it, the bottom line is Malissa would have died if she didn't lose the weight.'

The sad thing is her surgery could have killed her and now she is battling anorexia and could die.

Her mother probably thought that "You know it worked for me, it will work for my daughter...children do tend to follow their parents a lot...I blame the parents...I don't think they tried at all to support her and motivate her to walk or to eat less but they were just like yupp..34 stones lets go and get surgery.....I feel like if they worked harder to support their child they could have had grandchild in the future.

'Food made my physically sick,' she said. 'I had to force myself to eat.' Her daily diet is now three cooked carrots, two portions of parsnip and a roast potato, which provides 300 calories.

'I'm too thin. My body shocks me. But swallowing is painful. Eating a tiny amount gives me stomach cramps or makes me sick.

'I will most likely die of a heart attack, so I must persevere with eating. I am trying, but it is so hard.'

Too fat = heart attack

Too skinny = heart attack

Now what? .....

Losing weight will make you look older- Nigella Lawson vs Gillian McKeith

2011-04-26T08:49:00.000-07:00

In the society we live in losing weight is potrayed as the key to everything...Love, health...happieness and even youth. But that is not what Nigella Lawson thinks...

The 51-year-old is convinced that her voluptuous physique keeps her looking young and claims that she would ‘age ten years straightaway’ if she lost weight.

And she insists she is happy with what she sees in the mirror

She said: ‘Of course, I have moments of doubt. All women have times thinking, “My God, I can’t go out, my hips are so big today!”

I’ve got no desire to go below it. If I lost 40lb, I would age ten years straightaway. That’s my excuse!

‘But you know women find it very easy to persecute themselves over their weight and whenever I’ve said, “I ought to lose a bit of weight,” I can guarantee I’ll put it on.

‘I love food and I love cooking so therefore I never deprive myself. Thinness is fantastic for clothes, but I don’t do fashion.’

I have to agree with her for the majority of women not all but the majority they will thrive to be thin or slim because they want to look great in clothes and basically it about fashion.

In contrast we have Gillian Mckeith who I remember I used to watch her show "You are what you eat." And I used to listen to what Gillian said and take notes but now I look at the show and think how I could have used my time wisely instead of listening to what this women was saying....Yes this is the same 52 year old who claimed she was pregnant on I'm a celebrity get me out of here. Makes you question a lot of things she says.

Nigella Lawson and Gillian Mckeith are both 52 years old and both their careers and what made them famous was about food. The difference was Nigella has a cook show and she makes beautiful food and Gillian went around telling people that what they ate was wrong and that they should eat this and that...

At the end of all of this, if I was 52 I would rather look like Nigella than Gillian because Nigella looks 40 years and Gillian looks like she's in her late 60's. If I was 50 years old and plus the last thing I would want to do is to be counting the calories and hitting the gym with the 20 year olds.

Plus Sized and Curvy is Beautiful TOO- Part 2 - Ashley Graham

2011-04-23T04:48:00.000-07:00

Ashley Graham is a plus sized model and there was controversy and a double standards with an advert she did for lanebryant which fox and nbc wouldn't allow to air because it was too hot but there is so much more revealing things that we see on tv e.g victoria secrets and all these sexy purfume adverts. Makes you think did they not air it because it went against everything that they drumming on us that women should be only a certain size.

When I saw this I was wow, she looks good and she's not a size 0 or 2...whichever one.

There was video on the side bar on youtube and I clicked this video and something hit me...for the first time I looked at these skinny girls and I felt sorry for them...Like it's sad. I would rather have the body I have than look like any of these girls here...It's sad...that this society see's this as the only beauty of a women.

But you know what, I will never look like that nor will never want to look like that. I love my body even though I might have my up's and down's. I need to carry on embracing what I have and use it to my advantage.

Final video:

Here she talks about some of the things I have been saying...I feel like she's a good role model for bigger women as she shows them that they can be beautiful and be happy in their skin.

Plus Sized and Curvy is Beautiful TOO- Part 1 - Maggie Yumi Brown

2011-04-22T14:58:00.000-07:00

Maggie Yumi Brown = Classy, Elegant and beautiful woman.

These past couple of days each brick that I built to help me feel good about my body and the way it is has just been knocked down one by one. In this society with the media and people’s general opinions on the fact that skinny is better it makes me feel like maybe I should exercise 3 hours a day and start dieting again. I see these women and their like I have lost weight and everyone is like ohh, she looks so good, blah, blah blah…Even though this is the third time she has lost the weight after gaining it again.

With the media it’s just non-stop skinny, skinny, skinny and it just kind of got to my head like I am not pretty unless I am a size 8/size 2 in the USA. Another thing is you feel like you can’t look good, you can’t wear this unless you become skinny, lose weight. Those are the thoughts that will make the cycle to begin again. Those thoughts of my body is not good enough, I need to be like this. It’s not good.
So I went online and I found something that showed me that you can be a size 14,16,18 whatever and still be beautiful and dress well…all those things. That’s why I am going to start this series of plus sized women with pictures, video…the whole shebang. For motivation because clearly the media is going the opposite way were the women are just getting smaller and smaller.

Ok, firstly, on my hunt I found out about Maggie Yumi Brown who is a plus sized model and what I love about her is her style and elegance. She looks like she owns her body and that gave me confidence to embrace my body and work with what I have.

Be Happy.

Enjoy your holiday.

Learn to love yourself before you can truely love others.

Be spontaneous and most of all feel good doing it.

Keyshia coles- Take me Away Official Music Video

2011-04-19T02:53:00.000-07:00

Finally, I have found this song, I remember waiting to get picked up one day and then as I was standing there waiting someone in their car started playing this song. At first I didn't pay any attention to it but after some time I found myself singing along to the chorus...I only remembered this part of the song.

"I love my baby, I love my baby, ohhh."

So to my sounding I thought it was Mariah Carey, so I started youtubing and going on google but sadly nothing came up...obviously because I was searching the wrong artist. I even asked my friends about it and no one could recognise the song. But just now 2 months later I saw a link to this song and after taking a listen it hit me that this was the same song I had been searching for.

Funny how things turn out ehh....when you have forgotten about something it suddenly comes up out of nowhere.

Peep the song and video below:

The Kindest Thing- Cath Staincliffe- Book Review

2011-04-14T14:26:00.000-07:00

RATE:★★★

Pages: 261

Author:Cath Staincliffe

Published: April 2010

This book is very different from anything I have ever read in a while yet I found myself unable to put it down. I wanted to know what would happen. The story is basically about a women who assists in the killing of her husband as he has motor neurone disease. Which is a disease that has no treatment and would have left her husband unable to move nor even to swallow. This lead him to beg her to end his life peacefully.

But throughout the whole book it makes you wonder, if put in that situation where you loved someone so much that you wanted to spend every last minute with them even if in pain or you loved someone so much that you would answer to their beg for help and save them from undeniable pain that was to come. Did she do the right thing to assist to her husband’s murder? Is she truly a murderer even though it was out of love and death was already calling for him anyways? One to its own, life experiences and opinions vary from person to person.

Pro’s- Very good storyline…. I quite enjoyed the way this was written, throughout the book the author shifted from the past to the present. Linking the pieces to the puzzle one would say. This book also showed a light of such situations that neither of us would ever imagine being in, making us question what would we do if placed in her situation. The pace of the book was just right not rushing nor dwelling in pages of the same thing. I also found myself laughing at a number of times, the main character Deborah was in fact rather funny considering the situation she was in.

Cons- The ending I felt was kind of fizzled out and I felt they could have been more done to end the end the story with a better ending than the one that left me with questions about their family, her future and did they do this? Did they do that? Another thing if I think of it was it would have been more interesting to have heard more from the husband, what he thought, what he had said and how he felt. What caused the disease, why was he so persistent on ending his life on his own terms? Didn’t he want to spend every lasting second that he had with his family, even indulge in the pain? All these questions were left in air….Maybe it added mystery I don’t know.

Would I recommend it? Yes, aside from the minor exclusions pointed out above the story was well written and will also open your mind to things that you would not normally even think about. A very interesting read indeed.

Pregnant Mariah Carey and Nick Cannon Naked in Ok Magazine

2011-04-12T14:19:00.000-07:00

This is what Nick said on a radio show:

"My children are going to have to see these pictures… It’s a little weird.When they get older and their friends come over… they will see the pictures and say, ‘Your daddy’s butt naked!"

Aw, this is just too cute...I am happy for them and their family too come.

Beautiful!

Available on OK magazine 19th April 2011.

Glee: Ashley Fink aka Lauran Zizes Representing

2011-04-12T03:26:00.000-07:00

I remember when she was in the background I never really thought anything of her honestly. But when she joined the Glee club and there was a romance with her and Mark. And we actually started to learn more about her I just got so happy because she really does represent for those girls who are not seen as skinny or a size 2.

I love her attitude and her coinfedence about her body and who she is. She is like I am not desperate and you need to work for this jelly to in the show one of the cooler guys and that strong attitude and coinfedence is what makes him like her more and I like her even more because she's like this is my body like it or leave it...It's still gonna stay like this.

We need more people like her on our television because people are so brainwashed it's unbelieveable...She is beautiful and she is a great actress...She definatly is representing.

Peep this interesting interview below:

Nowhere to Belong- Harmony Brookes Book Review

2011-04-11T05:33:00.000-07:00

RATE:★★★★

Pages: 300

Author:Harmony Brookes

Genre: Autobiography

This book is a true story written by the author called Harmony Brookes. Here she talks about her horrible upbringing from not being wanted at birth to then being abused in ways unimaginable throughout her childhood and teenage years….

Pro’s- From the first paragraph you will be hooked onto this book, when I got the book I didn’t think this is what I would be getting and it was well written as well. You feel the pain and it’s shocking that someone could actually put someone else through all that. A child at that, it also showed me these things do happen and people will turn blind eye to it. Social workers, doctors, teachers even family.

Also it made me appreciate the childhood I was fortunate enough to have and the problems and things I worry about are nothing compared to what she and many other children I dread to think have to go through.

It’s really an eye opener and I believe will open your mind more not to just see what’s in front of you but to try to go deeper in search of why they might act like they do. Also in this story all she wanted was a person to be nice and treat her nicely and it makes me think about life and the people we might mean to, ignore or even laugh at, how will that affect their lives? What if you were that one person who was nice to them, who listened to what they said and actually asked questions like how are you? Or why are you mad?

I don’t know, I am just going on and on but it was a very interesting and eye opening book. It was quite vivid and explicit and I found myself shocked that a human can actually do that to a child….

Cons- I cannot fault this book but if you are quite sensitive then I would not recommend this.

Fainting on the First Day of my Period or due to Heat

2011-04-08T08:01:00.000-07:00

Today something happened to me that has never happened before and it was so scary. As I was waiting to catch the bus, I could feel my stomach hurting but I knew this feeling it was due to my periods starting as these pains were period cramps. But as time went on it just got worse and worse....To the point were I found it very hard to even stand...I was thinking about going to sit down on the benches a distance away but then the bus came.

Then I was pushed aside by a obese man as he said "I was here first."
That was as much as I clearly remember, I gave the bus driver my return ticket then as I was walking through the bus I just felt so weird, and dizzy then everything went dark and I remember I could feel myself falling forwards to the ground. I blacked out.

The next thing I remember hearing was a person saying "Are you alright, Are you alright?" It took me a couple of seconds to get up and then as I proceeded to get up the bus driver came and was asking if he should call an ambulance. I said no as I just wanted to go home. The dizziness and that feeling I had before I fainted had gone but my stomach had not subsided. As I got to my stop, I had called a family member to pick me up and then drove us home.

After the fall one thing that I noticed was that my lips were dry. I did try to sleep when I got home but my stomach hurt so much it was impossible. Then I used a heat pad but that didn't help much....I had some cranberry juice ....even though it's not meant for period cramps it has helped to soften the pains and now I think I will be able to eat something....My appetite had gone when I came home even though I tried to eat some chocolate to give me sugar. But what really helped was Ibuprofen.

I don't really know the cause of this but I have two causes one being the heat from the sun....I was wearing a black leather jacket of which could have contributed and also the heat on my face. Secondly, it could have been because I was on my period...With the research I have done it is not uncommon to faint when on your period. Which I personally wouldn't have found out if this hadn't occured.

As this was my first time fainting and it was a scary experience I won't go to doctor as I have been advised not to since I have only fainted once but if this incident does occur again then I will definelty contact my GP. I will also try to have more iron rich foods, drink plenty of fluids when outside aswell in the future.

It really scared me and even now it gives me a weird feeling...remembering what happened.

Xscape- Who Can I Run to - Tiny T.I Wife

2011-04-07T10:39:00.000-07:00

Guess what I ran into....As I switched to BET just to check if they had anything good on and I see this video and then I spot Tiny T.I's wife. She looked so beautiful and cute in this video...What happened? Also I have fallen in love with this song as I am also a fan of music back in the days...NOW that was good music. Now music is all about....urmmmm.....what is music now a days about??? Hmmm, I will let you ponder on that.

Kim Kardashian Says she Loves her Cellulite and Doesn't Wish to be a Size 0

2011-04-04T09:35:00.000-07:00

When I think of Kim Kardashian not a lot of good things come to mind, which I need to work on but today I found something quite interesting about her or what she said about her body. She is a curvy women and she did an interview will British Cosmopolitan were she said she had cellulite and that she wasn’t a size 0 but she was very much happy with her body….She pigs out and has all these junk food but she also exercises…..Even though I am not on a diet I walk regularly because I enjoy it.

Here are snippets from her magazine interview with British Cosmopolitan which will be out on the 7th of April:

And Kim Kardashian said that she loves her curvaceous figure, couldn't care less whether she has cellulite and always finds time to pig out on ice-cream.

The reality TV star, 30, said she has never aspired to be a size zero and added that she 'couldn't care less' if she was a size 4 or a size 14.

'If I was stuck on a diet my whole life, I would be really miserable. I love to eat. If you can’t enjoy your life then what’s the point? You can’t torture yourself. I love Rice Krispies Treats, ice cream and frozen yogurt.

She said: 'Having a bunch of sisters is like built-in best friends. We pump each other up and compliment one another. I don’t agree with women judging other women when they don’t know them.

'It’s bad for the soul and your self-esteem. Nobody has the right to judge. Especially me! I don’t have a perfect body, so why would I be mean about someone else’s?'

If only there were more women out there who were proud of their body and didn’t make themselves miserable trying to be a size 0. Good on her.

((And look who is rocking the hot tights tonight....))

Why are people so judgemental e.g Towards Tiger woods, Chris brown and each other

2011-04-01T14:31:00.000-07:00

This is a very important saying and to me it means one without sin should pass judgement but we all sin so on one should pass judgement.

Like Tiger woods and his situation, everyone and their mothers judged him and made fun of him and so forth and so on but I think to myself if this had happened at a time before all this media crazy society where every newspaper, celebrity shows and youtube people bashed him would we as a society be so judgemental...

To me I think because of the internet and more so all these websites like youtube for example and tmz people are much more judgemental and they don't have an open-mind to the whole story I guess or to even think and say to themselves...I have sinned and no one treated me like this but he sinned and I call him names and wish death upon him...

Is that right, what kind of twisted people are we becoming....Like Kanye west for example, people boo him and they said so many horrible things to him after the MTV thing but have you not ever sinned that you can say he is this and that....

I feel like the internet and all these social network things and these tabloid newspapers and magazines make us into people who are very judgemental and we don't have an open-mind anymore...We don't look beyond something.

I am not saying I am perfect nor I don't judge celebrities or people but I have been learning and opening my mind to being able to see past the many things that some people don't seem to see.

False Body Images and Objectification of Women

2011-03-29T10:42:00.000-07:00

This women speaks the truth and it is sad how after 40 years things have only gotten worse....Why is it that women don't open their eyes and realise that the images they see on the television is not the truth and that killing themselves and making themselves unhappy in order to become something or someone that is not even real.

We should embrace ourselves and not to be objectified.

Summer time and you Have Big Calves

2011-03-24T11:32:00.000-07:00

The sun is out and here in England you really have to cherish every single moment of it. But when spring and summer comes the jumpers, jackets and scarfs are not really appropriate to wear. Last year at the end of summer like I have said in my previous posts I went on my first real diet and for 5 months I ate less calories and I exercised and lost weight…I wanted to be able to wear shorts, shirts and all these nice clothes for summer time.

But I gave up because I was misereble and I realised that I was beautiful the way I am and that this is the body I have and I will always have this body. Anyways, I was on the bus one day and It was around the time when school children would come out and I saw this girl, she looked on the chubby side, like me. But she was wearing a shirt with tights and her legs looked good, she pulled it off. That made me think of when I was in highschool and I wore a skirt with black tights and I was very conscious about how I looked and what people would say but looking back at it I actually looked….(dare I say it) Good.

So today I went to town and I bought some black tights. I came home and I tried them on with the skirts I bought last year but I have never worn them, how many of us buy something but we never wear it. Sad. Anyways, I tried the skirts on and they really looked better with tights than leggings. But then I tried a brown pair of shorts that I got last year on holiday. They looked nice and my calves looked good. I didn’t even feel conscious at my calves or felt that they were big like I feel when I wear leggings.

I think that leggings make a person calve’s look bigger…expercially when their big already. I see it all the time, overweight girls who wear leggings and they just make their calves look even bigger than they are and this is the same with me…for two years I have worn them with dresses…but I felt so uncomfortable in them…Leggings do look amazing to those that are skinny but for the big girls….I would try tights…even though tights do ladder and leggings can last a person a long time I still think that tights will definelty make you look and feel good.

Soon I might become brave enough to get patterned tights.

Since the sun is out I am going to wear shorts, skirts and dresses and I know I will feel good doing it…I am so happy with my body and clothes…It might take me an extra ten minutes to find clothes that match and go well with my body frame but when I do I feel good about it. I am more open to wearing clothes that have short sleeves, clothes that are shorts, skirts, jeggings…Last year I never did any of that…I wore jeans all the time. I just hid my body and hiding your body with loads of big jumpers and baggy jeans most of the time doesn’t even make people look good. You know!

Chris Brown- F.A.M.E - Review

2011-03-23T12:12:00.000-07:00

RATE: ★★★★

Songs: 18

Artist: Chris Brown

I wasn't really quite sure if I wanted to spend my money on this album but I liked deuces and yeah 3x so I thought let me go into HMV and see how many songs are there.If there were 9 songs, I wasn't going to buy the album. So I find it at the front of the store and there 18 songs and the cover looks really good. So I buy the album and I am glad I did.

1. Deuces - Brown, Chris & Tyga/Kevin McCall- I luv this song, no matter how many times I hear it, but I think it is a song that was well written and many people can relate to it.

2. Up 2 You - Brown, Chris- One of my favourite songs in this album, makes your heart melt...It's an Rnb slow jam. The beat, Chris's voice. Amazing.

3. No BS - Brown, Chris & Kevin McCall- This was also on two of his mixtapes and it was one of my favourites. Bedroom slow jam, really hot and it just flows perfectly.

4. Look At Me Now - Brown, Chris & Lil' Wayne/Busta Rhymes- This is the official second single from the album and it's hip hop based but I like the way it is different anything out now. BUT what makes this song is Busta Rhyme's verse. He just kills it.

5. She Ain't You - Brown, Chris - The first time I heard this I remembered the Michael Jackson beat from human nature and I was like no Chris you can't be MJ...like R kelly tried singing you are not alone and it didn't sound good to me but Chris did it completly different and turned it into a completly new song...and I actually started liking it after a second listen and now it's one of my favourites.

6. Say It With Me - Brown, Chris- One of the upbeat and fun songs that just makes you want to dance, I love this song.

7. Yeah 3x - Brown, Chris- First single from this album. This is a fun and catchy pop song that will just have you dancing or jumping,lol.

8. Next To You - Brown, Chris & Justin Bieber- Justin bieber, to be honest I had to turn up the volume and listen clearly to even listen to his voice, very quiet compared to chris brown's voice. The beat and song was very good.

9. All Back - Brown, Chris - A beautiful balled. - Love his voice in this.

10. Wet The Bed - Brown, Chris & Ludacris- One of my favourites, love Ludacris's voice at the beginning and this is also another bedroom rnb slow jam. Amazing.

11. Oh My Love - Brown, Chris- This is another favourite, fast, upbeat....song that will get you shaking your head...The beat is good and at the first listen you will just love it.

12. Should've Kissed You - Brown, Chris- Best song of the album, Slow beautiful song about how he should have kissed that girl...Absolutly stunning.

13. Beautiful People - Brown, Chris & Benny Benassi- I heard this before I got the album and I wasn't really sold on it but now I love it.

14. Bomb - Brown, Chris & Wiz Khalifa- Black and yellow, black and yellow,lol. A solid hip hop song...chris sings though, but the beat is good.

15. Love Them Girls - Brown, Chris & Game- One of the weaker songs of the album.

16. Paper Scissors Rock - Brown, Chris & Timbaland/Big Sean- What can I say, with timbaland on the beats and chris's voice...Instant banger.

17. Beg For It - Brown, Chris- Another bedroom slow jam not as strong as the others but still a good listen.

18. Champion - Brown, Chris & Chipmunk- Peaked to second place on the uk charts and with chris's strong vocals...A good addition for the uk listeners...

All in all I haven't bought an album that was so solid and had a variety of music that was pop, rnb, hip hop, techno...whatever all in one and it was done at a standard that was good. I was really surprised at how good this was but I can't stop listening to it.

I would definetly suggest you get this album, you won't be dissapointed.

Nicki minaj Plays with Dildo On Stage

2011-03-19T15:12:00.000-07:00

((I censored the picture))

It is truelly sad when a female artist is reduced to doing things like this live on stage in order to entertain people. What if they were children there?? Then what? Mummy whats that Nicki is holding? I dare to think, sex education at a concert.

It seems like now female artists are more about taking their clothes off and degrading themselves in front of the whole world instead of showcasing their talents, which Nicki has. Imagine all those women that went through hard times so that we could have more rights and be treated with dignity but in this world how can a man look at you as his equal when he see's these women like Rihanna, Lady gaga and more....Showcasing their bodies as if it's a piece of meat instead of something that should be treassured.

What happened to paving the way for the younger generations to come...I wonder what the young ladies growing will want to dress and behave like when they grow up. Who knows... If I was a person and I knew that I had some sort of influence towards millions of young women out there in the world I would try and present myself in a way which gave more women respect but one to it's own, I guess.

Anything to sell ehh GAGA.

Is Breakfast Really Good for you??

2011-03-17T13:58:00.000-07:00

Many people including myself believe and think that breakfast is good for you. But now aday when you think of breakfast you think of cereals...All my childhood I used to have kelloges cereals for breakfast before I went to school. When I started college I stopped having breakfast as I wanted to lose weight but even that didn't last long.

Then I started having special K, which is quite expensive for the small amount that comes in it. Even if you do have the 30 grams. Anyways, every time I have these cereals I always feel bad. Are they really that good for you?

This is when I tried out some shreddies and their just the same as weetabix....Imagine that is what you are putting inside you're stomach.

I really want to take care of my body. Not to lose weight or whatever else but just to eat what is right...So many people including me eat things but we don't even have a clue what it is we are eating but we eat it because of how good it looks and the taste...

Imagine if you saw a beautiful island and then you went for a visit but after the first day on that island everything looked, felt perfect so you said I am going to live on that island forever. The plane leaves and there you are living on an island you now nothing about....Every month it could go under water, there could be monkeys and deadly animals on there.....

I don't know what other breakfasts to have, I know I can have eggs but I don't really have time in the morning to be making eggs and oatmeal....Will see.
Right now I will have peppermint tea, Banana and will see how I feel with that....

Rebecca Black- Friday (Worst Song ever)

2011-03-17T03:13:00.000-07:00

Ok, so she is autotuned all over this video. The lyrics are really plain and....(Im trying not to be too mean here) I can't with the lyrics. "IT'S FRIDAY, FRIDAY." Really now. The video is a mess. Theres that silly little calender thing which looks really cheap....then she gets ready for school, (which she never goes to)and during takes some zit comes on her face and then she is waiting for a bus but her friends who looked like they were 12 years old were driving....Then...Then some old guy comes out of no-where and started rapping...which was bad to it's own.

She looked so uncomfortable throughout the whole video... This has to be the worst video I have seen in a long time and in a week it has had 10 million views....I don't know if this is good or bad thing...Maybe she is the female version of Justin bieber who knows only time will tell but atleast Justin had talent and could sing..

Thats what makes me sad when anyone can be an artist these days. They don't even need to have talent. Yes, I'm gonna be a singer but I can't sing. You know you're bad if autotune can't even make you sound good.

It's like a surgeon saying...well I don't know anything about medicine or surgery but I am going to do an operation on you anyways....

Peep a funny video review of this song Below:

'Easy A' Movie Review

2011-03-16T12:18:00.000-07:00

Rate:★★★★

Length: 1 hour, 28 minutes

Where can I buy: --> Easy A [DVD] [2010]

Age: 15

Genre: Romance, Comedy, Highschool

Yesturday me and some of my friends had a day in where we just watched movies and one of my friends brought two dvd's and one of them was "Easy A."

Pro's- It was really funny and it was different in the sense that it wasn't just a love story were two people hate each other and then they somehow end up loving each other. But it had a good message and the storyline was great. Also Emma stone the lead was good as she played the part very well. It had a romance (Plus, Plus)

One of my favourite parts of the film was this....Peep video below:

Con's- I really can't think of one at the moment; maybe a hunk so stare at would have been a bonus,lol.

Would I recomend it? Yes, it's funny and the storyline is really different from all these other highschool themed movies. I would get it, it's a real laugh.

Trailer:

Adele: An Elegent Rare Talent

2011-03-14T14:33:00.000-07:00

She is so beautiful and talented. It is so rare to find a women who's voice speaks for it's self and also ooz's elegance. She doesn't need to get half naked like many of these other female artists now a days but she lets her talent speak for it's self. But also she gives me and I think many women her size the coinfedence to know and believe that they can be as elegent and beautiful and not being a size 2 or skinny. I feel like wearing a dress and a skirt now. Amazing.

Peep her emotional and beautiful live performance at the Brits this year:

Buying a dog Online - Scams

2011-03-11T16:40:00.000-08:00

I have been in search of a dog for some time now and I wanted to inform anyone thinking or looking for a dog online about the scams and how to spot they are scams.

1) Location, If you apply to an ad in london and then the person emails you that they have moved to scotland or Isle of man. IT IS A SCAM. NEVER BUY A DOG YOU HAVE NOT SEEN.

Why is it a scam, they will say they have moved so that you can pay to have the dogs delivered to you but in fact nothing will be delivered and your money will be lost.

2) Looks too perfect- They will say the dog has all the health checks done and it is free...they are very smart they will also ask you many questions and say will you send them pictures of the dog so that it seems like they care for the dog...IT IS A SCAM.

3) Sometimes you might find someone actually selling a dog and they actually stay were they said they did. You might visit them but I WOULD ASK TO SEE THE MOTHER OF THE PUPPY BEFORE BUYING because then you won't know what you will be buying. You might be buying a sick dog/puppy that will need medical attention which will cost you a lot of money.

Examine the dog, look at how it reacts when you arrive to visit it, it's stomach size and even it's eyes...

4) If they don't answer your questions even though you answered their questions, this is usually because they copy and paste the same things to many people in search of a dog...I would advise you not to give your number but ask for their number if you would like to make contact outside of the email.

Ain't they cute they will send you cute pictures so that they make you want them even more, don't fall for it...these scammers will have made 100 ads on different websites.

I never thought that it would be so hard to buy a dog and it has convienced me that getting a dog or a pet at this point in my life might cause more disadvantages than advantages. I have tried shelters, charities, which seem to be a scam as well (the one's I found anyways)Breeders are another story....lol. This is to advice others so that they don't fall for these scams, it really does seem too good to be true.

Below are some scam emails:

Maybe it wasn't mean't to be, I will not force anything that is not meant to happen.

Japan Tsunami March 2011

2011-03-11T13:51:00.000-08:00

My prayers goes out to those in Japan....Natural disasters unlike many things cannot be controlled by humans...

Jessie J- Who you are album review

2011-03-11T13:31:00.000-08:00

RATE: ★★★

Songs: 13

Artist: Jessie J

I remember seeing Jessie J singing do it like a dude a couple of months back and I didn’t like the song at all but after the video started being shown on the television and I gave the song another chance I fell in love with the song and then I heard price tag and I loved that song as well. I also saw a live session on MTV were she performed some songs and then I was like I am going to buy this album.

1) Price tag- Was the second single of the album and Jessie J’s first UK number 1. A decent song, when I first heard it I fell in love with it and let’s say it was on repeat for so long that it started getting annoying. But a good song still.

2) Nobody’s perfect- One of my favourite songs of the album, her voice is amazing. A must listen.

3) Abracadabra- This is an alright song, probably one of the worst in the album…..

4) Big white room- Amazing vocals, it is actually a live recording and it sounds amazing, nice slow song.

5) Casualty of love- One of my favourite songs, it has an RnB feel to it, which I really love. Just amazing.

6) Rainbow- Upbeat song, Jessie J is actually rapping in this, which is alright but it a decent song.

7) Who’s laughing now- The first verse is abit lame but the rest of the song is good. I love how she sings about how people used to put her down but after she becomes famous they start sucking-up to her….

8) Do it like a dude- Amazing song, first single of the album, if you haven’t listened to this were have you been,lol.

9) Mama knows best- I listened to her singing this on Youtube but her voice is good. Decent song at best because of her vocals.

10) L.O.V.E- Another one of my favourites…about love and I really love when they slow it down….and the bridge. Nice RnB song.

11) Stand-up- This has a positive message and it a song you listen to and move your head to.

12) I need this- I was very shocked to hear this song on here, it was on Chris brown’s Graffiti album. Having listened to both versions I still think that Chris brown’s version is better because his voice had more emotion and strength than Jessie’s but a good song still.

13) Who are you- This is amazing- I have to say this is by far the best song in the album. Her voice is mind-blowing in this song. The song is heartfelt and has an amazing message about being who you are no matter what other people say. Just be who you are.

Money well Spent??

In an album with only 13 songs and around 9 songs range from good to amazing, this is great since most artists now a days tend to only have 2 good songs excluding the singles that are decent. I feel like I spend my money wisely and hopefully there will be more albums like this from Jessie J.

Side-note: It was great to see her do different things in this album from live sessions and when she spoke as well.

Things fall apart- Unofficial Trailer starring 50 Cent

2011-03-10T13:27:00.000-08:00

Do you remember this picture? It was on every blog, magazine and newspapers. When I first saw it I was shocked because he looked so sick and sad. But this was for a movie role. Trailer is seen below:

At the first 30 seconds I am like ok, it's just another sort off average film about an american footballer but I was almost in tears at the end....The trailer is really emotional and I think I might...just might go and see this...It looks like a powerful film that will really show case what people with cancer go through and it will really tug at your emotions.

This was 50 cents statement to why he took on this role and felt the need to go through such a dramatic weight-loss:

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“It was inspired by the loss of my friend growing up. One of my best friends that lived across the street from me. He actually died of cancer and that’s what inspired me to write the screenplay.There is no way to portray the experience of losing someone that close to you outside of you investing yourself in the project for real. I kind of went through this thing where I was trying to emulate what he looked like to me at that point and that’s what helped me to continue to lose the weight."

Bowling

2011-03-04T14:20:00.000-08:00

This Friday night I went bowling with my friends and at first I was thinking of backing out, making excuses and so forth but then I was like why not, I haven't been bowling in a while.

We went and got out shoes changed, am I the only one who says a shoe size that is smaller than their actual shoe size, lol. But the shoe fit perfectly so that was lucky.It was a lot fun and we shared many jokes with each other. I think I came third and I had zero strikes....sad face.

After bowling we went and had Nandos. I love Nandos, the chicken..hmmmm.

If you haven't been try it.

Dr. Dre ft Eminem and Sklar Grey- I Need a Doctor

2011-03-02T12:00:00.000-08:00

I really like this video, I don't think I have a video so thought out in a while. I am not really a Dr.Dre fan but I like the song and this video has just made me like it even more.

Also I would really like to say Sklar Grey has an amazing voice and I really like the chorus on this song. She was also on the chorus and wrote "Im coming home" by Diddy Dirty money.

I will be looking out for her, very talented.

Enjoy.

Pink talks about Christina Aguilera's Arrest

2011-03-01T15:01:00.000-08:00

I don't usually like to write about celebrities but I felt I had to voice my thoughts on this.

This is what happened a day ago.

"According to reports , Matthew Rutler (Christina's current boyfriend), was stopped after driving erratically around 2:45am in West Hollywood. The singer Christina was so intoxicated, that she had to be detained because the police didn’t think that she could care or herself."

Then just now Pink tweeted:

What a way to fuel a burning fire. I don't know if it was mean't to be funny or spiteful. I wonder what people would have said if the shoe was in the other foot. Would Pink have laughed?

All I have been hearing is people being very judgemental and if you really think about what actually happened. If she was drunk, who hasn't been drunk, she is a grown women and with her situation I am not surprised and if it was drugs every celebrity does it. She didn't beat up someone, kill or rob a bank but she is being judged as if she had.

I want people to look outside the box and expand the mind frame they are in right now.

Christina's album Bionic as people would say "Flopped," It really underpreformed and when that happens it must be hard for an artist because it's your work out there and people don't like it anymore. Also she is going through a divorce and so a lot of people in that situation will experience stress and it will really affect you emotionally and mentally and also she is a mother. Which is a job and a half to it's own even with all the help I am guessing she is receiving.

Then the super bowl mistake and her career not being as great as it was before. Put all of that together imagine how you would feel. Some people would say she has an ego and all this but she's still a human being and has feelings as well.

I just feel like being bitter and judgemental at celebrities when they make mistakes and do silly things is in a way sad because unconsciously your life isn't fufilled if you have to bring down someone else over the internet. But now adays we do it without even knowing we are doing it. It's just like a sinful voluntary reaction.

"Just think before you say something mean to someone else because you never know what their going through in their lives. "

I am Number Four Movie Review

2011-03-01T06:52:00.001-08:00

Rate:★★★★

Length: 1 hour, 44 minutes

Where: Cinema

Age: 12

Genre: Romance, Advanture, Sci-fi, Action

I went to the cinema this weekend that has just gone by and I saw the movie "I am number four."At first I saw the trailer on youtube, it was on the front page and it looked decent but my friend wanted to go and I thought why not...and I will say this, the trailer doesn't do it justice.

Pro's- It had a nice highschool romance. It had a lot of action, they were doing cool tricks and using their powers which was really good. They were also dramatic moments in the movie that made you jump up. Also the movie had some humour in it but it was more from the evil/bad guys in the movie. The bad guys were massive, huge, fish face sort-off people and I thought they really were funny.

Last but not least the story line of the movie was different and interesting, which I really liked because you won't know what is going to happen next.

OHH and let's not forget the hottness...

Con's- I felt like they left us hanging when the film ended and it didn't really finish well, I guess. But I am guessing since it's a book turned into a film maybe they spilt the book into half or they are more books and more films to come.

Would I reccomend it? Yes, if you liked Avator the movie, you will definetly like this.

Poem: Why I Write This Blog

2011-02-23T16:09:00.000-08:00

There are so many things I feel and so many thoughts I have in my brain.
I want to let them free
I want to express myself
Creatively

Memories
I want to be able to look back in a year, two years, 10 years
And remember these moments
To be able to laugh, cry and sign as I look back in time

If I die atleast I will know that in a 100 years someone will accidentally click on here and my memory will continue.

I want express my creativity by
Writing poems from the heart
Having a voice on my opinions of books, movies and music
Take beautiful pictures of the world
Even Just being able to write

I want to take pictures of the environment around me
I want to release my thoughts to world
I want all people to have open-minds
I want to live and not just exist

This blog is my outlet
My best-friend
My family
Me

Blue Moon- Book review

2011-02-23T15:44:00.000-08:00

RATE:★★

Pages: 232

Author:Julia Green

Genre: Romance, Teenage pregnancy

I saw a friend reading this book and then when I saw it at the library I was like, hey ho....let me go and get this.

Pro's- It had a romance and as stated before I enjoy those and I like reading about teenage pregnancies. Also the storyline was decent and it is readable (don't actually know if that is a word,lol)

Con's- This has been done so many times, I have read a few teenage prengancy books but they had another factor in the story but this was just plain and really had nothing extra to offer from all the other books out there that did this subject. Was a bit dissapointed with it, I expected more excitement and originality from the book.

Would I recommend this? No!

Sidebar- Even though this book was a fail I am still on the hunt of a good book.

A Walk to Remember Book Review

2011-02-23T15:29:00.000-08:00

RATE: ★

Pages: 215

Author: Nicolas Sparks

Genre: Christianity, Romance

I know it's old but I heard a lot about this book and some of those people said it's better to read the book than watching the film, so there I went and got the book from the library.

Pros- It had a romance, I enjoy those and I liked how they were both different and then they got together, it was cute.

Con's- It was over-hyped I think. I also believe that it was rushed and not a lot of time was really put into planning and writing this book. Another disadvantage was that I could tell what was going to happen like 50 pages before it happened and this book was only 215 pages long so that's not that good. Basically it was very predictable.

Final judgement- The book was not really my cup of tea.

Would I reccomend it? NOPE, don't waste your time.

Britain's Fattest teen :Gains all her Weight back plus Extras

2011-02-21T05:20:00.000-08:00

Georgia Davis is Britain’s fattest teen and I wanted to write about her story because it is so sad. I truly feel for her and I hope that someone is there to help her.

Georgia topped the scales 2 and half years ago as Britain’s fattest teen at age 15 and I remember reading about her and the prospects of her being put into care. After that she was sent to an American fat camp and when she came back home she was 16 years old and she had lost 15 stones…Now that’s a lot of weight. She now weighed 18stones and a lot of people were proud of her.

However, her story doesn’t end there now she weigh’s 40stones and 6 pounds at the age of 17. How can someone gain that much weight?

She is a yo-yo dieter and can you imagine Georgia exercising every single day and then all those times she wanted to eat those tasty junk food but she couldn’t and she worked and worked her hardest to lose all that weight but then she comes home and she is 15 stones lighter and unlike most people she gets some publicity and she’s like an inspiration for many people on their weight-loss journey.

But then what her life goes back to normal, hardly any exercise and all those cravings of crisps, fizzy drinks, pizza all junk foods comes back and she indulges twice as much because she was restricted to it for so long. Time goes by and guess what she gains the weight back twice as fast and plus some extras.

This is the cycle millions of women go through but not at this extreme scale but it’s the same principles….So What should she do, diet again, go through all of that again…just to end up in the same place…..I couldn’t do it.

I do believe that the mother is partly to blame for this; anyways that's another post to it's own…Let’s hope that the next time we see Georgia it is with good news.

Nicki Minaj Moment 4 life

2011-02-17T10:17:00.000-08:00

I really enjoyed the introduction to this video, it was crazy, beautiful and funny at the same time. Also the video had a great meaning to it.

I really liked what Drake said from 4:20 he says "NOT EVERYBODY LIVES BUT EVERYBODY DIES."

Which is very true.

A Healthy Balanced Lifestyle

2011-02-07T11:57:00.000-08:00

This tends to be me now adays. One of the main reasons being my future, when you don't have a set future career plan you will look like that women above, like I don't even have finger nails anymore. My situation is I have been forced to apply for a course in university because there is more of a security in that job however my heart isn't completetly in that job.

Some of my other options that have crawled around my head.

My first plan was to start a business, I was very keen on starting a Bed and breakfast hotel and then developing from there.

My next plan was to teach english in China or Japan but I don't know it just seemed like a pipe dream.I thought about loads of different ideas from working on a farm and just living of the land to working on a zoo and then going to africa and working in the wildlife and my latest idea was working on a cruise line.

What excited me about working on a cruise line was getting to travel around the world and doing exciting things but with every idea there is always complications and it's own negatives.

NOW,now NOWWWWW I am thinking about just about having a balanced lifestyle that will involve having a career in nursing which is the course I applied for in the beginning, hopefully starting a family in the future and being there with the family. Maybe a couple of dogs and other different animals like goldfish or turtles. I am not someone who has to go out every single friday or saturday night....I like to stay more because that it my comfort zone, I guess but I also like to go out now and again.

Ohh, I will start reading novels more now, I went to the library today and I got three books, so when I get to reading them I will do a review. Also I want to travel and if I am lucky enough to live until I am 40 or 50 and in good health then I have all that time to go on holiday and visit one place a year or two and that way I will see the world and also have a career, and be with loved ones...That's why I named this a healthy balanced lifestyle.

That Perfect Beach Body

2011-01-31T08:45:00.000-08:00

I know every year around at summer time we all start to go crazy on all these crash diets because we want to lose weight for that summer holiday. Well do you really believe that in two weeks you will be able to lose the weight and look like this.

I thought not, most people only last a day or even a week and then give in. Some people say to themselves I will not go on holiday this year because I haven’t lost enough weight. I will go on holiday when I have lost 30 pounds. Well what do you do if you don’t lose that weight, you don’t go on holiday the following year, well I am going to say live you’re life or you will spend most of you’re life being unhappy. Be happy with what you have and enjoy you’re self. Go on holiday, where a swimsuit, shorts, dress and have ICE CREAM in summer. Life is too short to be worrying about how much you weigh.

You know what I would rather be like this and enjoy my life....

Why I gave up Dieting and Wanting to Lose Weight

2011-01-31T07:25:00.000-08:00

After dieting or attempting to lose weight for many years, something was finally working, I was losing weight….Slowly but surely. After 4 months I had lost 11 pounds and my BMI was below 25. I was officially healthy and not overweight but how did I feel. Yes, I felt happy when I had gotten on that scale and the numbers went down but then I would just start thinking about wanting the scale to go even lower and the happieness would go away.

I also received a few compliments about my weight and it felt good. I am not going to say eating healthy and exercising is wrong but when you are doing it to lose weight you usually get carried away and start doing extreme things. For example, I went on a fruits and vegetable diet. In a day I lost 2 pounds but I felt so sick, depressed and sad. I just felt horrible and I think to all these celebs doing this to themselves…it’s not nice and I would rather be overweight than ever go through that again.

As well, I exercise using workout Dvd’s and I sprained my leg using a workout dvd. I never thought that would ever happen to me but it did and now I look at it, am I healthier now than I was before, I think not. I got a cold as well this year, the doctor said because I wasn’t receiving enough nutrients my immune system wasn’t strong enough to fight off the virus as quickly as it had done before and I am a person who hasn’t had a cold or flu in years.

Being healthy is not defined by the number on the scale but you and you're body. Being healthy means being mentally, physically, socially and emotionally well.

Journey to the so Called Dream Body

2011-01-31T04:53:00.000-08:00

How many of us want a body like this? This is what we diet for...to end up with a body like this....Yes, Yes, Yes...Millions of women and men diet everyday with the hopes of getting a bodies like these.

I am going to say alittle about myself. Since the age of 9 I started dieting or trying to lose weight, it wasnt as serious as today but it was there...As I got older I gained more weight, not alot but I was always bigger than the previous year. But now I think about it; it could have been because I was developing...developing into a women some people would say.

Last summer I started my weight loss journey. In that journey I exercised three times a week, why most weeks and I started eating healthy...I cut out on all junk foods and I lost 11 pounds. I got a couple of compliments. I am 11 pounds lighter but am I happier than I was when I had those 11 pounds....what did I gain....

I think the main reason why most people who lose weight gain it back is the fact that when they reach their goal...there's nothing at the end of the road...all the expectations and hopes they don't come true and then you say to yourself...Is this why I made myself unhappy. This!!

Beyonce, Beyonce Beyonce...This is a picture of Beyoncé playing a role in DreamGirlz. For Beyoncé to play this role she went on the maple syrup diet and it was reported that she lost 1 stone in a month by just having this syrup mixture of lemon juice, water and cayenne pepper. But when you are consuming only 60 calories a day how do you go on. There are many crash diets like these that promise fast results and easy weight loss. Is it really easy though….If these diets worked would millions still be dieting today? No!

Coming home - Diddy Dirty money

2011-01-28T10:36:00.000-08:00

This song is number 3 in the uk Itunes and is definitely going to be in the top 5 in the UK official charts this sunday. To me what makes this song so special is the lyrics, especially the chorus.

It has a beautiful meaning and when I hear it I think about home and going there. I have to give it to Diddy, good job. The video is amazing and the singing is wonderful. Aswell the rapping was heartfelt. Diddy is really maturing and growing musically and I might say and I just might buy Last train to Paris album by Diddy Dirty money.

New Year and Cold feet

2011-01-01T15:25:00.000-08:00

1st January 2011, how do I feel about it…am I making New Year’s resolutions and partying all night long? No! I am glad that 2010 is over but what makes 2011 different from 2010 it’s just a period of days that have finished you will have to go to work at the same place, see the same people as you did in 2010. New Year’s Day was boring, waking up…eating, internet, washing the dishes and cooking then sitting down and watching the good old television.

As I was watching the television with about 3 pairs of socks on and ugg boots on plus with the heating blazing hot. My body was warm but my feet were cold and this has been going on for 2 months now…I am the sort of person that likes to walk around without any socks in the house but this is what I was reduced to.

Anyways, I got curious of what the problem could be so I went online and goggled “why are my feet always cold,” and I got an answer and someone said that it could be because of is no/ lack of circulation in my feet, which seems pretty accurate and one good suggestion was putting your feet in a bucket of water. And that’s what I went and did.

As you can see from above that was my bucket and towel. Nothing fancy, hahaha. At first I cleaned the bucket and then put hot water from the tap whilst the jug boiled and then I placed my legs one at a time into the bucket of hot water and then I dried it off. I repeated it again after the hot water had boiled in the jug. The water was so hot though I had to add some cold water and then I placed my feet in the bucket again. I also massaged my feet and it was relaxing and it felt good. In addition, it has been a couple of hours now and my feet are nice and warm but I do have a pair of socks on.

So that’s the way I solved the problem of having cold feet, literally….